Burp!!

Bee-hon and fried chicken plus sweetened mango juice satisfies my hungry stomach after a long hour of programming today. I feel a bit full now so while relaxing, I was thinking why not go open my laptop and do blogging. So here goes.... tadahhhh LOL.

*Sigh* I wonder when can I stop programming jobs? In my mind I wanted to stop after my contract expires and that would be my 12 yrs of programming already. Pheww it's challenging but it is surely a pain in the brain. What if I shift career, it would be nice. Do I still have the luxury of time and money to study medicine? I wonder how it feels if somebody will regard me as a doctor. It will be so cool, I think. Well just a wishful thinking *giggle*. Anyways, my feasibility study is on the run now and hopefully I will manage to finish it including the financial statements. I am seeing that one requirement to put up the business I want is to have a Point-of-sale terminal. This is a bit expensive if I will buy this so I have decided to create it myself to lessen my investment budget. I can make use of the free RDBMS offered, like for instance MYSQL. Hayzzz so there's goes programming again LOL. So it's hard to be separated from this profession huh.

Pointing other matters, well I'm glad I was able to give some space for myself lately. Taking a break from some things indeed helps. The only thing is, it made me read novels so much that whenever I can find time anywhere, I will find myself flipping the pages of that book I'm into again. And I also notice it made me write a lot too. Sharing my thoughts to anonymous. I just finished reading "Angels" earlier and now I'm thinking what to read next. My ordered books will take sometime to reach me. Perhaps I just read again "Host" of Stephenie Meyer. I like her books because of the wordings she chooses when describing the whole picture. It's like she's really putting the readers inside the world she built in the story. "Host" is nice novel too as it talks about aliens and how it came to know and feel what is humanly love.

Yaiks.. feeling sleepy already... zzzzzz

P.S this Saturday will be an extra fun day, I hope. Gazing air force stuff... cool!!

A June Gift

Wheww Friday at last and next week would be the last week for the month of May. Can't wait for June to start, and then July, August and so forth LOL. Pardon my impatience but I just can't wait returning to my homeland to be with my love ones. I feel that at this time, I'm eaten up already with many circumstances making me feel exhausted, in defeat. It's like I don't want to play very strong anymore and just allow myself to submit with the flow. It feels that finally I'm consumed already with experiences and the last thing to do now is to be with my family. Too long I was given the freedom to do what I want and I really appreciate it so much that there's a man in my life who understands my needs and who always supports me all the way. I may be unfair most of the time but he just remains quite and understands me. I was blessed indeed to embrace so much trust and believe in me. Many times I have encountered people who feels intimidated with me and even envies some of my little achievements. That “ego” thing? LOL I find them a bit annoying because they just dont know what I have gone through just to move where they moves. The last thing I can do is to stay away from them. They have given me no choice rather than hurting myself trying to please them which is not my forte anymore. But despite of that I am still happy because there's only one man in the world that never feels this way towards me. Who laughs when I laugh, who cries when I cry, feels pain when I get hurt and most importantly who loves the people whom I also love. He feels my achievement is also his achievement rather than seeing me as a tough competitor like the rest I have known so far. I am so happy to realize now that GOD indeed knows how to make two people see and feel each other. And I am glad my path leads me to him and I'm praying that the bond will remain strong despite of anything. His words still lingers in my mind now "If I will be given another chance to choose a person, I will still choose you." I am so blessed indeed to have him.

June is approaching and I need to find a birthday gift for him. Wish I can be with him but although distance is between us, he knew my sincerest care and love. I will just find ways how to deliver it. My mind is scanning what gift to give, as I want to surprise him. I will start doing some window-shopping at this early. Anyway, will be going to Malaysia soon with my colleagues for a one-day tour. Perhaps I can find something from there.

Oh about my novel readings, I'm now half way reading Angels. I think I need to find another book to read next week. Many books to wait now aside from TORMENT and PASSION by Lauren Kate, I think I will be getting also the sequel of ANGEL which are ANGEL FIRE and ANGEL FEVER by L.A. Weatherly. I think I need to buy another bookshelf when I return home. I want to compile all the books I read as my collection. My son loves to read too, he may want to read it too later when he finds himself into novels already.

By the way, "Happy Wedding Anniversary to my mom and dad. Get well soon mom"

Till my next blog.

Channeling My Thoughts

Lately, I couldn't stop myself flipping the pages of the book I'm reading now as I eagerly wanted to know what would happen at the end of the story. The excitement made me feel very occupied that it's like I'm actually inside that fantasy world created by the author. I like it this way. I am liking this feeling when I'm so focus letting some pictures sink in my mind, the characters, the whole story itself. Because in a way I'm just doing my own thing and doesn’t minding anymore the people around me. Worrying whether I have offended a person or not and just hurting myself in the process. I don't like that. I don’t want to feel weak. Being depress is the first thing, I'm wary about and so I always find ways to escape from it. I'll jump from one place to another if I have to. But surprisingly, somehow I retrieve my old ways of how to channel things. I feel now a bit relieved because I nearly forgotten one of my passion which is reading nice novels and gladly was able to ignite again that momentum inside of me. I was just preoccupied with my curiosity to explore things and to know people. I feel the excitement recalling my gestures like when I'm hurrying home because I couldn't hardly wait curling to my bed and start flipping the page of the book again.

Well luckily, my thoughts now are very occupied and feel like no more room to entertain negative vibes, disappointments and fears. Such keen understanding flows in me again and I simply rekindled my reasoning of why I am here, working in this foreign land away from my love ones. I am simply seeing what I should do now. Just enjoy while things still there and the next day another challenges for me. Time flies so will just have to make the most of it. A blissful afternoon everyone.