Have you ever wanted something very much that your heart is really aching to have it but you just can't have it? That's what I'm going through these past few months. Yes I've been very busy lately but that doesn't cover much the longing that I feel. It's been stressful figuring out ways on how to fulfill my heart's desire but alas it just wouldn't work out the way I wanted it to be. We couldn't control everything there is in life and so I'm letting go. It may be hard letting go of one's longing because some of the pieces will be left behind and will put a mark in our hearts. My friends were right, I should always be grateful with everything that I have right now because you will only know its value once they're no longer there in your life. So much with my self longings. I must be contented. I'll be fine and will continue to move on. I want to go back 3yrs before where I was so focus . Growing up makes us strong but sometimes I wish I was just the same as before 3yrs ago where I feel very contented with everything that I do and I have. Now pressure is all surrounding me. Higher expectations and bigger responsibilities is always there waiting for me. Another aspect of being me is also evolving asking to have or do something which should not be done nor be felt. I need to be strong. I need to focus. I know these will pass and will just be a part of my memories.
"Sometime I live in dreams and fantasies but I embrace reality." ~Blog Author
Friday, August 29, 2008
Wanting something
Have you ever wanted something very much that your heart is really aching to have it but you just can't have it? That's what I'm going through these past few months. Yes I've been very busy lately but that doesn't cover much the longing that I feel. It's been stressful figuring out ways on how to fulfill my heart's desire but alas it just wouldn't work out the way I wanted it to be. We couldn't control everything there is in life and so I'm letting go. It may be hard letting go of one's longing because some of the pieces will be left behind and will put a mark in our hearts. My friends were right, I should always be grateful with everything that I have right now because you will only know its value once they're no longer there in your life. So much with my self longings. I must be contented. I'll be fine and will continue to move on. I want to go back 3yrs before where I was so focus . Growing up makes us strong but sometimes I wish I was just the same as before 3yrs ago where I feel very contented with everything that I do and I have. Now pressure is all surrounding me. Higher expectations and bigger responsibilities is always there waiting for me. Another aspect of being me is also evolving asking to have or do something which should not be done nor be felt. I need to be strong. I need to focus. I know these will pass and will just be a part of my memories.
Thursday, August 21, 2008
A Glimpse of My Childhood Years
Hi. I know it's been quite overdue in updating my blog. Lots of things to be done both school and office that keeps me very busy these days. I just finish making some part of our school requirements and I have decided to post it here as well. It's a flashback of my my childhood years. Though I have not cover everything but at least I was able to take a glimpse of my past. Hope I will somehow make you inspired by sharing my memories.
Being born as the eldest among the siblings, I was taught to be tough and trained how to tolerate pain mentally and emotionally. I’ve been asking many times why I need to experience all those punishments and why discipline always accompanied with belts. But now I understand that perhaps that was meant to be for me to become a strong woman as what I am right now.
I’ve been trying to analyze why my parents before were so strict. At a very young age of 18 and 19, my parents gave me life and brought me into this world which I’m always grateful with for the rest of my life. Like with any other couples who marry at a very young age, my parents’ undergone lots of adjustments in their years of marriage. They maybe a strict parents and despite of all of those reprimands and punishments, I know deep in their heart that they love us very much.
My elementary years were full of fun and interesting experiences. I was included in the “Lakambini and Prinsesa 85” competition way back 1985. I was 6 yrs old way back then but still managed to won the first runner up place. Despite of being little and new to those kinds of things, people were much entertained watching me doing the ramping on the stage. I could still remember that I was wearing a long Muslim-oriented gown encircled with beads and lots of glowing materials. That dress was so unique that until now we kept it.
I will never forget that part of my childhood because that’s the first time that I was exposed and was able to gain some self-confidence. Also, when I was six years old my father who loves singing very much started to train me with vocalization. He made me join to a singing contest in some barrios and I will never forget my first singing piece entitled “Hello” by Lionel Riche. Another encounter of joining princess contest was when I was 8 yrs old and it was followed during my grade 5 years when they let me joined again the united nation contest. I was representing United States Of America during that time. I feel my heart really tickles while trying to remember all these things that sometimes it made me wish to go back in the past.
My high school days brought me mix experiences. It was during those years that I have discovered that I have the talent to act onstage. On my first year in high school, I tended to become a shy type one. I never join the crowd and I have few close friends. My third year brought me somehow a unique experience when an instructor became my suitor. And of course I face lots of rumors during that time despite of my being innocence. I am so glad, I face that all and was able to stood up and cleaned my name. My fourth year was the most enjoyable one. That was the time when I got myself qualified in a theater guild and was able to act on stage. I have undergone trainings like the one being done by an actors and actresses. I was so fortunate that I have experienced all those things. We played the “Tatarin” by Nick Joaquin and I really love the role that was given to me. I acted as the sophisticated woman and I really had fun practicing wearing those 3 inches hills while holding that artificial cigar. As I could recall, I was wearing a lavender backless dress. So sexy indeed! That experience really helped me build more confidence to face people and express myself freely.
It’s is my father’s line preferring Engineering as the chosen profession. And probably it explains why I have decided to enroll myself in Computer Engineering. I know it would be tough and I need to add another year to finish it since it’s a 5-year course. Yes indeed I was “burning my eyebrows” every night while complying all the requirements and not to mention the very technical things that I need to understand well. I had fun during my college years though. It is noted that in engineering, girls were outnumbered with boys. But they treated us girls very gently just like a sister. During my 5th year, we went to Manila and visited multiple companies as we had conducted our educational tour. That was my first time to see the views of Manila and also my first time to see the beauty of Baguio City. It was a remarkable experience and I will always cherish the memories forever.
A Glimpse Of My Childhood Years
By: Cherry
Being born as the eldest among the siblings, I was taught to be tough and trained how to tolerate pain mentally and emotionally. I’ve been asking many times why I need to experience all those punishments and why discipline always accompanied with belts. But now I understand that perhaps that was meant to be for me to become a strong woman as what I am right now.
I’ve been trying to analyze why my parents before were so strict. At a very young age of 18 and 19, my parents gave me life and brought me into this world which I’m always grateful with for the rest of my life. Like with any other couples who marry at a very young age, my parents’ undergone lots of adjustments in their years of marriage. They maybe a strict parents and despite of all of those reprimands and punishments, I know deep in their heart that they love us very much.
My elementary years were full of fun and interesting experiences. I was included in the “Lakambini and Prinsesa 85” competition way back 1985. I was 6 yrs old way back then but still managed to won the first runner up place. Despite of being little and new to those kinds of things, people were much entertained watching me doing the ramping on the stage. I could still remember that I was wearing a long Muslim-oriented gown encircled with beads and lots of glowing materials. That dress was so unique that until now we kept it.
I will never forget that part of my childhood because that’s the first time that I was exposed and was able to gain some self-confidence. Also, when I was six years old my father who loves singing very much started to train me with vocalization. He made me join to a singing contest in some barrios and I will never forget my first singing piece entitled “Hello” by Lionel Riche. Another encounter of joining princess contest was when I was 8 yrs old and it was followed during my grade 5 years when they let me joined again the united nation contest. I was representing United States Of America during that time. I feel my heart really tickles while trying to remember all these things that sometimes it made me wish to go back in the past.
My high school days brought me mix experiences. It was during those years that I have discovered that I have the talent to act onstage. On my first year in high school, I tended to become a shy type one. I never join the crowd and I have few close friends. My third year brought me somehow a unique experience when an instructor became my suitor. And of course I face lots of rumors during that time despite of my being innocence. I am so glad, I face that all and was able to stood up and cleaned my name. My fourth year was the most enjoyable one. That was the time when I got myself qualified in a theater guild and was able to act on stage. I have undergone trainings like the one being done by an actors and actresses. I was so fortunate that I have experienced all those things. We played the “Tatarin” by Nick Joaquin and I really love the role that was given to me. I acted as the sophisticated woman and I really had fun practicing wearing those 3 inches hills while holding that artificial cigar. As I could recall, I was wearing a lavender backless dress. So sexy indeed! That experience really helped me build more confidence to face people and express myself freely.
It’s is my father’s line preferring Engineering as the chosen profession. And probably it explains why I have decided to enroll myself in Computer Engineering. I know it would be tough and I need to add another year to finish it since it’s a 5-year course. Yes indeed I was “burning my eyebrows” every night while complying all the requirements and not to mention the very technical things that I need to understand well. I had fun during my college years though. It is noted that in engineering, girls were outnumbered with boys. But they treated us girls very gently just like a sister. During my 5th year, we went to Manila and visited multiple companies as we had conducted our educational tour. That was my first time to see the views of Manila and also my first time to see the beauty of Baguio City. It was a remarkable experience and I will always cherish the memories forever.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
A Dream...
I'm having a cup of coffee now while listening to my Bossa Nova Collection. I really miss blogging. It's my way of expressing myself especially those that comes from my heart. My morning is ok although I have a scary dream last night about riding a plane and it crashed while attempting to land. Gossh.. but in my dream I was crying because I was so thankful that I was not inside when that plane crashed. I was puzzled because some pieces from my dream are missing. I can recall sitting inside while the plane take off and the next thing happened was I saw how the plane crashed and the next thing I was at home crying hard because I was not on that plane. Confusing right? I could still recall the feeling that I have during that time. How grateful I was because during that time my angel helped me again I just couldn’t see how. I felt GOD's presence and he is always there to protect me. That was my first time to dream about airplanes. I feel bad at first when I woke up that's why I'm injecting now the mood of Bossa to help me release that feeling. Few months back, I could still recall I kept on dreaming of someone. Many nights that I dreamt of him and I really don’t know why. That was my first time to a dream a man whose face in my dream is so clear even his smile. At first the picture went very, very clear that I could hardly forget it the scenario every time I woke up. That dream made me asked myself, what is soul mate? I just actually kept that to myself. I kept on dreaming until one day it begins to fade. The face became blurred but I still know that it's him until one day, that dream stopped and worst I dreamt about that plane thing. I wish to know about the meaning of dreams but I am also afraid of unveiling its meaning. Do you believe in dreams? They said dreams are product of heart’s desire...but if this is true, I never desired to be involved in an accident. I have experienced accident one time and it is very, very traumatic. I'm sincerely grateful because GOD is always there for us. His touch of care comes in different ways and too sad that most of the time we didn't noticed it. We should always be grateful and I always believe in prayers. Let’s be thankful always.
Monday, August 11, 2008
Contract Signing @Manila
Hello everyone. I wasn't able to update my blog last week because I was on a business trip. I was mandated to attend the signing of contract with a telecom client to be held at Mall Of Asia Manila. It is important that I should attend to discuss our initial steps of implementation and also to meet those persons that I'll be dealing with during the entire implementation process which will be done as soon as possible. As usual, I enjoyed every trip that I had. For me it's an opportunity to meet new faces and see beautiful places. I brought along one programmer with me. We surely had fun together from plane onboard to our destinations. From the airport going to the hotel at Makati, what a funny experience we had with the taxi driver. Despite of our efforts to use the "Tagalog" language, the driver easily identified that we are "Visayans” (the native language in Mindanao province) because of the way we pronounce the words. Anyway, we stayed at Makati Tower Prime Suites. It's a condotel wherein each room is equipped with certain appliances like refrigerator, electrice stove, oven toaster, television and others. Although the hotel is quite old but still it gives convenience. From hotel, we went straight to our office at Paseo Roxas Makati. My boss and our big bosses were there. We ate lunch together at one of the chinese restaurants near our office. Chinese foods are great and so I like it a lot. In the afternoon, we had a tour at Glorrietta and LandMark. Afterwards, Irene's sister also my former classmate way back high school days came over together with her cousin and husband. We had dinner together at Gerry's Grill in Makati. After finishing our dinner, we went to GreenBelt 5. It's a nice place where you and your partner could hangout. The following day was the main highlight which is the contract signing with our client. From Makati, we went to Mall of Asia located at Pasay City. There's a very nice Chinese restaurant in there called China Palace and that's where the contract signing will take place. The food was delicious and I really neglected my diet during that time hehehe. Anyway, the event was successful and we made them sign at last. Now it's my call. I and my team will handle the implementation which will be conducted very, very soon. Most probably it will start by next month. We need to visit their main office in Taytay Rizal to conduct data gathering particularly the format of their switch raw data. From there we need to do system customization to fit their needs. I'm excited but I'm also beginning to feel the pressure. Hope we could deliver on time. But yes we will !!!
By the way, I never let each day finish without taking some pictures. Here are some of my shots.
By the way, I never let each day finish without taking some pictures. Here are some of my shots.
@Makati
@Makati
Viewing from 11th floor
Cagayan de Oro View
Cagayan de Oro View
Mountains
Plane approaching Cagayan de Oro
China Palace Restaurant, Mall Of Asia
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