OverStressed?

Yes I think I'm over stressed now. I need a very long vacation break. But what can I do? we have a scheduled product presentation this coming March 10. It's wide mindanao conference of cooperatives and we are scheduled to present and introduce our financial software to them. The Banking design web edition was just given to me a week ago and we need to develop it before the schedule date of presentation. I know my developers are a bit tired now that's why I'm helping them out doing the programming of the modules. Wish we could finish it soon so I could take a week leave. We're planning to go to Davao this coming holy week. I will just have my vacation in there. I want to go to a place away from the pressures at work even just for a week. Yesterday I'm having a fever and couldn't manage to stand up because I feel dizzy. I have checked my blood pressure and thank GOD I still have blood LOL, it's still normal. My eyes are having trouble now maybe I have to change my glasses. I'm exposing my eyes too much to computers lately. And when I'm at home I couldn't take off my eyes in that Korean DVD movie "Coffee Prince". What can I do, the story is so funny and well quite romantic. I love romantic comedy films. *wink*

This week

It's been quite a loong week for me doing lots of things that's why I wasn't able to update my blog these past few days. Just not to skip putting something in here every week I will just give a summary of what I did recently but it will be short because I need to attend my classes few minutes from now. Well first, finally I have now my non professional driver's license. I've been using the SP license because I couldn't find time yet to apply for the non prof. It was a long day application for me. Drug test, medical test, written examination and pratical exam. Woooshh it's a bit tough but thank GOD I have passed it all. Last Monday was my mom's birthday too so we have a little celebration at home and I did prepared sweet macaroni salad for her. I did lots of paintings lately and it made my right arm numb a bit but it feels fine now. I need to apply the second coat though, so maybe this weekend I will do it. This week is not too good for me too because I was sick maybe because of too much stress. I need a long vacation but I can't do it just yet. My boss won't aprrove it because we have a deadline to meet. Anyway, I know i could still make it and after that VACATION.. Till my next blog. I need to go now to attend my class..Till then.

Self Realization

It was 11 o'clock in the evening when I arrived at home last night. Together with my MBA classmates, we have discussed our written analysis case which will be submitted this coming Friday. So far the discussion went very fine and hopefully I'll be able to draft my case analysis correctly too. Anyway as I recalled, it was in the middle of the discussion that something came up to me. While in the middle of conversing, I realized a very important aspect in my life. Many years I've been searching for something that I dont even know what would that be. Trying to fulfill a very selfish longing that was hidden somewhere in my heart for quite sometime. I thought finding it will give me happiness and contentment. Few weeks ago, I told myself I finally find what I've been looking for. I was so happy that I even posted a blog for it describing how I feel during that time. Thinking that when time comes for me to completely forget about that feeling, all I have to do is browse this blogsite, reminisce and maybe even just smile to the idea that I did experienced that feeling before. But No! I realized that's not what I need and in fact I shouldn't been looking for anything now because I already had it a very long time ago. It was so selfish of me to not recognize it's presence and the love it gave me without questions and conditions. I consider them my treasures in life. I realized that it's because of them why I love myself more, why I want to look beautiful each and why I think so positively in life. I finally came to my senses and know now where my place is. A place where I know where love is unconditional and true. I promise to be a better person now and I should always appreciate all the blessings that was given to me. Thank You Lord for making me realize the most beautiful part of my existence. From now on, I will try to be a better person and I promise to take good care and love them deeply. So precious.. You are my treasures.

Stairway To Heaven

It was a marathon of Korean telenovela for me last weekend. Me and my sister find our bonding moment as we spent sleepless nights just to finish that 21 volume cd's of a very romantic yet very sad korean movie entitled "Stairway To Heaven". It was too sad that we kept on crying from beginning till end LOL. The story was all about two lovers struggling to fight for their love. When finally their love was given a chance, the girl found out that she has eye cancer. The doctor advised her to remove her eyes inorder for the cancer cells not to spread to others parts of her body but the girl was very hesitant about it. There's another man in the scene who is also madly inlove with this girl. He was too inlove that he gave up his life just to donate his cornea to the girl for her to be able to see again. Indeed the girl was given the chance to see again through his eyes. She was too happy as she was with her true love. However, the story ended with too much grief because the girl did died since the cancer has already spread to the other organs of her body. The guy who actually became her husband in the scene was left behind but he knows someday they will meet again. Though very sad, I still love the movie and the soundtrack too. I did search for the album and fortunately I was able to donwload it. The music is too romantic, full of love yet full of sadness and separation. Love indeed is the most beautiful part in this world. Advance Happy Valentines to All!!

(Snap shot of the Movie courtesy from SBS)

A New Day

It's definitely a lovely morning today. I feel inspired and a bit excited with my iteneraries for today. After lunch time I'll be out in the office to test my driving skills. I have no choice now but to really drive because most of the time I'll be out in the office to attend clients meeting. I told myself before that I will never put myself in the drivers seat and just always be a passenger because of my traumatic experience few years ago. I was seating in the front seat during that time as we travel the winding road of Gingoog when suddenly our pick up was hit by a "Bagong Lipunan" bus almost head on. All I could remember was the window glasses were broken into pieces and some of it was caught in my eyes. The driver that time, a co-worker of mine dont have the choice but to stay calm and try to open his eyes despite of the broken glasses because if not we will fall in the cliff. It was traumatic for him too since he needs lots of operations just to get the smallest pieces of that glasses from his two eyes. Since that incident, I never sit in the front seat; how much more in driving a car. That was two years ago when the management ask me to handle Consumer Information Technology Department which basically handles client's concerns and implement systems anywhere in the neighboring areas; that I have started to conquer my fear and force myself to sit in the front seat. It was too hard for me especially whenever a big bus is approaching. It feels like I want to jump and it's like a flashback to me. After one year, I feel ok with the front seat issue and recently I have started to drive a car. It's a bit scary still up to now but I'm conquering my fears. Presence of mind and be extra careful when driving are the importnat things to consider. I can do this. If other woman could do it, why can't I? *wink*

I'll put you in a box.

I'll put you in a box and keep it somewhere very safe close to my heart so that I could open it whenever I want to open it and could reminisce the happy thoughts and tickling moments that I have experienced on that one beautiful evening. A one time experience that may not happen again because reality will always be there to disallow it to happen again. Asking for more is not my intent because the thoughts alone is enough for someone who is already planted in a pot and being taken cared and nurtured by a master allowing it to bloom beautifully each day. I realized you are the missing piece which I have searched for quite sometime already. I found you now but alas there's nothing I could do to hold you forever. Recognizing your existence and savoring whatever happy memories that I could collect are the only things that I'm allowed to do. If only I could turn the time just once, I will go back to the time where reality is more cooperative to me. I will collect everything there is and put it inside a box. And perhaps someday fate will lead me back to you so I could let you see what's inside in the box and it's magic of completing my missing piece.......