Trails of Friendship

In this modern world that we're living in, our busy schedules somehow control the way we perceive life. Yes we see new faces everyday. We get acquainted and eventually we allow them to become part of what we call our circle of friendship. Yet we haven't realized that only a few of them will prevail. Some chooses to become a friend for a lifetime but some just for awhile. We must be ready to face reality that friends do come and go. They're here today but tomorrow who knows. I realized that the degree of friendship depends on oneself and up to what level you will allow that person to penetrate your whole existence. Some were quite fortunate when they get the chance to really know the true person behind that facade smile. But alas for those who get rejected despite of many efforts that they have given and despite of the sincere offering for friendship and trust. We couldn't blame the person if he/she puts barriers because they may have personal reasons behind it. We may sincerely want to be welcomed in all aspects of their lives but sadly there's nothing we can do when that opportunity already comes to its end. It is sad though to realize that people change abruptly without giving a clue that the change is about to begin. That the road of friendship has come to its finish line and there's no other way to move on but to step backwards for us to at least preserve the remaining trails of friendship. I simply realized that this is the way it is and we have to live with it. Our hearts may be stained with pain and sadness for awhile but time knows how to heal it. We need to be strong and should always be ready because none of us can beat life's greatest challenge; and that is living in a world full of constant change.

Poems don't Rhyme

Hi. Sorry if I was carried away with sad emotions last time. It just really shows how vulnerable I am sometimes. I'm doing great now. I saw someone that I missed. Hmmm... it's a secret. As usual there are many things that have to be done here in office. I keep on receiving emails from my boss and from sales people informing me that another client will subscribe to our system. I'm happy with that but it's just that we are having hard time to cope all of those now because I'm in shortage of manpower. Two of my programmers have tendered their resignation last week. There are already lots applicants but none of them passed the exam yet :-(. We're really having hard time now looking for a replacement. Applicants should pass the exam because what I need is with high analytical skills. Anyway, I’ll be out of town next week to attend meetings with two different clients at Manila. Thank GOD it's not yet our Marketing Management defense. I'm beginning to get panic with my schedules now. Hope I could still manage this. I don’t want to stop schooling especially now that 1 semester more to go to graduate. So exciting yet sad to think because it means I will seldom see my classmates then and…… it’s a secret. Hope we will still get in touch always when that time comes. Anyway, I saw this short message from an email. It feels like I'm the author because I could simply relate. Can you relate this to your life too? Till then.

"I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next."

Awful Morning

I feel bad now because I found out something. I wish to shout. I wish to cry. It may sound stupid to someone that because of very ordinary things I feel very awful but that something means a lot to me. I feel being betrayed. I feel alone. What should I do? I havent taken my breakfast yet. I feel bad really.

Things that I truly missed

These past few days I really feel as if I'm totally used up. It's been a stressful weeks doing our feasibility study at school at the same time attending all concerns here in the office. I miss spending most of my time at home with my family. I miss doing gardening. I miss buying of new pots where I could plant beautiful flowers. I miss decorating our little house. I miss doing re-paintings our stairs. I miss going to smalls stores at Cogon area where I could buy very affordable items. I miss reading my pocket books. I miss visiting a library and just browse for any interesting books. I miss checking what's new in the pirated DVD stores hehehe. I miss doing grocery during lunch time. I miss the "Simbang Gabi". I miss waking at 3 o'clock in the morning to attend the mass during Easter Sunday. I miss walking a few meters before reaching my office. I miss going home before 6pm. I miss our fun talks with my mother and sister while waiting for the sun to set. I miss decorating our very cute christmas tree. I miss seeing colorful firecrackers in the sky during Chirstmas and New Year Celebration. I miss doing the caroling. I miss cooking various kinds of foods for a special occasion. I miss wrapping of gifts. I miss the Noche Buena. I miss listening to "Visayan" christmas songs. I miss watching cartoons. And above all, I miss my family.