Treasure the love

Woke up this morning having puffy and baggy eyes because of my non-stop crying over a movie that I watched last night hehehe. Very cheap tears!!! I was watching 2007 IF ONLY movie starred by Jennifer Love Hewitt and Paul Nicholls. It's a touching story as it talks about learning to appreciate the people in our lives and letting them know how important they are to our existence. It's about two lovers. They both deeply in love with each other but the guy is too much occupied with his career and neglected in so many ways the small happiness of the girl that he loves so much. One night, the girl was caught by an accident and actually died. The guy witnessed it all and was really devastated because he just realized how important that lady to him and everything now seems worthless and he feels as if his life has no meaning on it. While crying over with that tragic event, one day he wakes up and he was so shock to see that the girl is lying beside him in bed. He was so shocked and couldn't believe it because he did witnessed everything and the pain in his heart is so real up to that moment. Every next moves of the girl he knew already as if like a "Dejavu", happened in the past and is like happening again. Every small happenings before the accident is happening again and just in a different version of its occurance. Of course, my tears are already flooding inside my room at this point hehehe. How I wish I bought popcorn that night. Anyways going back, as the guy realizes that things are happening again as exactly as it was, he is bound to make the one last day with the girl a memorable one. He tried hard to escape what is bound to happen, but nothing can change what is destined and he realizes that. He finally told the girl that she taught him to love and to trust. That she loves her so much. At exactly 11:00pm, they were caught by an accident but this time, it was the guy who died. Huhuhuhu, very sad story and it really caused my big eyebags this morning.

Anyways, the bottom line here is to always give time to our love ones. It made me feel a bit guilty considering that I'm far from the people I treasure the most. No money can compensate with genuine touch, the talks and hugs. We should give importance to the one we love because we really don't know when they will be taken from us. Never be afraid so say I love you or I miss you or I care for you. There's nothing compare of showing how much we care by simply telling what is there in our hearts. Savor the love and care your love ones because at the end of the day, they are our treasures in life...

Weekend Delight

It's finally Friday, end of the week. This weekend will be break time from work and stress. I feel weak today yaiks.. can be a sign of Aging? *Blush* I am supposed to meet a friend tonight but texted her that I'm not feeling so well and would just like to go home early. So Ok, that itinerary is cancelled. So I feel fine with it now with the idea that I can do many things later relaxing at the flat like movies, surfing the net and look for mp3's. But after awhile, another friend texted and called me asking my help to meet our ex-colleague who's here in Singapore for a training but will return to Brunei tomorrow. A pile of hollow blocks in my arms now hehehe. I can't say no because first, that person is the best friend of someone dear to me. Second, I seldom get the chance seing this person because he's working in Brunei for quite sometime now. So the verdict, carry the hollow blocks but stand still fresh and feeling pretty. hehehe. Anyway it is Friday, so just have fun with it. Tomorrow will be a "phewww" day for me. So many things to attend but feeling excited with my workout session.


Happy Weekend!!! Cheers!

My reason

I'm missing more my hometown lately especially my love ones. Sometimes we do make some sacrifices for the sake of the people we care so much. There are so many "If Only's " in my mind like "If only I'm born with ..." or "If only we have..." perhaps there's no need to go faraway and be separated from your love ones just to receive extra amount to fulfill the needs of the people you care the most. But despite of that I have no regrets in my heart because the journey of working abroad gives me different experiences, different challenges. I meet new people and witness’s different ways and cultures. Some are nice, some are very friendly and some already put marks to my heart which I will treasure always. There are so many things that I learn here. Living alone taught me to be more independent and strong. Likewise my time management is also improving like I always do even I was still there working in my hometown. I set schedules which I diligently follow. On weekends, I really don't want to miss my exercise routine at the gym to boost my immune system. And on Sundays, it’s my time to visit the house of GOD to give thanks for all the blessings and to pray for good health and safety.

I miss doing some things which I like. Cooking for instance and invite guest to come over. I miss gardening too. I'll be returning to my hometown very soon and we will do a late birthday celebration for me. Definitely I'll be the one to prepare the foods and will invite friends and relatives to come over. And also, I miss taking good care of my son whom I dearly love. Being a mom is really an ultimate reward for me. It made me complete. It made me feel beautiful always. It's like my source of strength. I am so blessed to have him and I am very proud of him. Wish I can hug him now.

Anyways, It's getting late but still awake because I'm waiting for the American Idol show at channel 5 here in Singapore. One of the finalists there is a Filipina (Thia Megia). I have so much interest with music. I and my family are musically inclined. I was so surprised in fact amazed recently on what I have discovered. My son has a good voice too and he loves singing. At his young age, he can now do timings and reach high notes. I will have his talent develop more by having him enrolled to a music class as well as playing instruments. It just feels so great to have reasons for all the sacrifices and effort I am giving now.

Budgeting Time

Month of March is ending and a few days more, I will be receiving my salary. Hence, it's time to do budgeting again for the month of April expenses plus savings. Once, I have attended a seminar about how to save. They said the ultimate technique to handle your expenses as well as savings is to always follow this formula:


EXPENSES = INCOME - SAVINGS.


and not the other way around SAVINGS = INCOME - EXPENSES. The formula Expenses = Income - Savings definitely sounds reasonable enough considering that you are setting your priority first on savings before attending to your expenses which includes “the needs and the wants”. I am really forcing myself to always follow this formula so I can accomplish all the plans/projects that I have in mind. As what I have noticed, sometimes EXPENSES can be extended to miscellaneous things. Like if we only went window shopping and just so happened we see some boutiques or stores on clearance sale, definitely the temptation to avail it is so strong even if it is beyond our budget scale already and the last thing in mind is use credit cards. I’m guilty about this too because sometimes I’m also like that. I'm just so glad that lately I can now control myself on this and not really go into impulsive buying.


So going back to my chart, I see to it that I will save first for my ongoing project and will just allocate what is left or shall I say I need to make the most of it by hook or by crook hehehe. This way I can be sure that I can really save. Before, I usually do manual budgeting every month. Meaning I just write it in a small notebook and keep it somewhere. But just today, my colleague shares to me how he does his budgeting via iPhone. There is one iPhone application that we can download for free. It's called iXpenselt Lite. I like it so much because you can actually put the type categories of your expenses as well as the source of income side. It has the feature to let you see your cash flow as well as the income statement stating there your net balance after plotting all your expenses for the month. Woaah... it's like I'm advertising already this iPhone software hehehe. But really, this one is cool and you can even export your budget flow via email and can be open as excel file. Nowadays it is really so convenient with almost everything. But of course those are for materials things only. There’s still nothing compare to genuine touch, hugs and love. Anyways, right now no need for me to bring my notebook whenever I send money to my love ones. The iPhone can do this things now plus this iXpenselt Lite is guarded with password. So even if u lost your phone, no worries about it. Your money secrets are still protected.

So Happy Saving. Cheers!!

My blog's new face

Just today I feel the urge to change the theme of my site and put some changes on it so I grab this chance while I still have the momentum. I also changed the music; playing this time some selected love songs that I like. ^_^

Some of my favorite love songs:
01. Someone's Always Saying Goodbye By:Allona>
02. Why do we always hurt the one we love By:Dan Hill
03. Someone That I Used To Love By:Natalie Cole
04. Straight From The Heart By:Bryan Adams
05. Love Will Lead You Back By:Taylor Dayne
06. Never Been To Me By:Charlene

The essence of life..

It's been awhile since my last blogging I think and I usually ended up to writing whenever I feel saturated already with mixed emotions. It's like my other sanctuary where I can release sad thoughts, happy memories and concerns that I may have right now because after awhile as I look back to what I have written, I can proudly say to myself, "wow I have gone through that? But gladly I made it through". It feels great that GOD blessed me with another year. I just celebrated my 32nd birthday last sunday. Well I’m kind of a bit old now but just a little, I mean not so yet (blush blush ^_^). When I look back at the past till the present now, I can say that I have achieved much already and if GOD will grant me more achievements in life, I will gladly embrace it with all my strength and courage. I can say that I have been through rough times with tears and struggles but that is life. Every decision made has indeed consequences but if it is for the better, I will gladly face it. It's hard being alone away from people you love but I'm facing everything with courage and faith so I can provide and I can make someone's dream come true.


My birthday eve wasn't that great though because I was crying over something I didn’t expected to come. Tears seemed bursting inside after an sms from someone dear to me shared some concerns. It's like I'm caught between to commit or not to commit. To say No which will surely make this person down because deep in my heart I know he has no one to turn but me or to say Yes which will turn things into jeopardy. For their sake, I am willing to give my all while I still can and while my health still can handle it. It brought me to some realization that really made me cry in front of my housemate while having coffee late that night. I just couldn’t hold back the tears anymore. I feel sad with the thought that many thinks that I'm so strong and can just handle everything without no doubt where in fact I too can be very vulnerable at times and what they see is just a shield telling the world "Hey I'm Ok!" but the truth is I'm already crying inside enduring some pains and disappointments. But what else can I do but to love myself more and to take good care of those people who truly loves me with no conditions, no buts and no ifs because at the end of the day, when others starting to find you worthless and not as good anymore as you used to nor pretty anymore like you used to, these true people will still be there to guide you, to be your eyes and ears and to comfort you in times of sorrows.

I guess life is just like that. Like Forrest Gumps famous quote that says "Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you gonna get." So what’s the best way to handle it? Do your hair spa, pamper yourself with a massage, threat yourself to a movie and try some good restaurant nearby. In other words, love yourself more and to stay always strong and more faith. And I'm sure things will get better at the end. So what's next for me? Just continue to hang on, have the courage, face new challenge, and love the love that comes along the way. Trust, share and get hurt over and over again and after that stand up and face the world with courage and pride. Because that is the essence of life and we need to go through hardship for us to be strong and to test our faith. It will give balance to oneself. As they say, “laugh and the world will laugh with you. Weep and you weep alone”. So just be positive always and it will be sunshine again after the rain.

Till my next blog.