Just My Monday Morning

It's Monday morning. Alarm clock set to 5:30 am and the second alarm clock set to 5:40 am. So Ok after the first alarm clock bells, that's my signal to stop dreaming. I lazily stretch my arm reaching that alarm clock and make it stop before it can actually disturb others sleeping in the other rooms. Eyes still close but my system already awaken and if I was having a beautiful dream I will try to continue it and see the happy ending. If I dream nothing, fine, I will think of some plans to make my day more interesting. When the second alarm bells, time to open my eyes and adjust my eyesight in the dark room; intently checking each corners, the walls, the ceiling, and the door. Sometimes I wondered why I need to do that. So I got up stretching my veins, settling my mind yet still feeling skeptical with the whole idea that it's Monday morning and need to do my thing again in the office. Time for basic hygiene routines and sometimes deciding what to wear and how to do my hair. And now that I'm ready, it will be time to walk but almost running actually as I need to drop by at a Filipino hawker to buy food for me. From there I need to take the MRT going to the bus station where I can ride the bus going to my working place. I should have a perfect harmony with time as 1 minute late at the bus station will take me 15 minutes more to wait for the next bus. That's why literally I'm already running just to get there in time. Way back months ago, I feel very exhausted but after awhile my system is already used to it and in fact I'm loving the idea of exercising every morning. It allows me to have extra energy all through out the day. I find it healthy in a way.

When I finally reach office, that's the time to loosen a bit myself, say my Hi and Hellos to my colleague catching what they do on the weekends. Luckily my employer is kind enough to provide us a pantry where we can prepare coffee and in my case cereal or oatmeal for the morning. Usually my first thing is I check work emails while drinking my cereal. I can also take some small bite of bread to make my breakfast complete. Taking vitamin C also is always part of my daily dose. And the rest is work, work and more work.

Sometimes I feel that the stress I'm getting is overwhelming as most of the time, I develop systems, debug codes and program system logics. Quite tricky but perhaps I am bound to compel as my body is actually anticipating such profession because it's where my thing is. Coding is fun but sometimes I cannot elude that same pattern feeling of entrapment like you are always inside a box. Sometimes I envy those who chooses from start a career that can actually make you embrace the beauty of every living and non-living things on earth. It’s not that I regret what I have chosen but it’s just merely giving an answer to my curiosity. But if given the chance, I would love to have new career where I can actually give help and show compassion to people by servicing them first hand like in medical field treating illnesses, managing a Foundation Home reaching those who needs help and imparting knowledge to students which I already did last 2009. And I'm actually planning to go back next year.

I always love to be of service to those who are in need. If someone will ask me what's in my dream list. I would say Hospital, Foundation, School, and Farm. Dreaming is free so it is ok to dream big. Perhaps someday, I'll be able to achieve this. Let’s fly with our dreams.

'Till then...... ^_^

Dreaming to fulfill someone's dream

What I want to do right now is to fulfill one's dream. To be GOD's instrument for them to be happy and satisfied. In a way I will feel happy, content, and fulfilled. Everything we have in our life was given for a reason and designed to mold us into a better person. We are destined to travel to a certain path and each path there lies challenges, pains, happiness, and contentment. I let GOD guide me which path I should take. I believe everything that I feel and think right now is his will. Here's hoping that everything will be in place and all the people who depends on me will also be guided and settled. We should have faith always and constantly believe what we can achieve because whatever our mind can conceive, it will be given.

I'll be turning 31 this coming March 20 so Happy Birthday to me!! Wow I'm getting older each day but that's part of our lives. The aging thing shouldn't be worried these days because lots of facial cream that can help you cover the lines. But I'm blessed with wisdom and the chance of understanding and facing life's peculiarities and challenges. There are still many questions in my mind and seeking for some answers. But that's the beauty of it. Unveiling what lies ahead. Faith, Love, and Hope will be my shield.

A Dream...

I'm having a cup of coffee now while listening to my Bossa Nova Collection. I really miss blogging. It's my way of expressing myself especially those that comes from my heart. My morning is ok although I have a scary dream last night about riding a plane and it crashed while attempting to land. Gossh.. but in my dream I was crying because I was so thankful that I was not inside when that plane crashed. I was puzzled because some pieces from my dream are missing. I can recall sitting inside while the plane take off and the next thing happened was I saw how the plane crashed and the next thing I was at home crying hard because I was not on that plane. Confusing right? I could still recall the feeling that I have during that time. How grateful I was because during that time my angel helped me again I just couldn’t see how. I felt GOD's presence and he is always there to protect me. That was my first time to dream about airplanes. I feel bad at first when I woke up that's why I'm injecting now the mood of Bossa to help me release that feeling. Few months back, I could still recall I kept on dreaming of someone. Many nights that I dreamt of him and I really don’t know why. That was my first time to a dream a man whose face in my dream is so clear even his smile. At first the picture went very, very clear that I could hardly forget it the scenario every time I woke up. That dream made me asked myself, what is soul mate? I just actually kept that to myself. I kept on dreaming until one day it begins to fade. The face became blurred but I still know that it's him until one day, that dream stopped and worst I dreamt about that plane thing. I wish to know about the meaning of dreams but I am also afraid of unveiling its meaning. Do you believe in dreams? They said dreams are product of heart’s desire...but if this is true, I never desired to be involved in an accident. I have experienced accident one time and it is very, very traumatic. I'm sincerely grateful because GOD is always there for us. His touch of care comes in different ways and too sad that most of the time we didn't noticed it. We should always be grateful and I always believe in prayers. Let’s be thankful always.