Wanting something

Have you ever wanted something very much that your heart is really aching to have it but you just can't have it? That's what I'm going through these past few months. Yes I've been very busy lately but that doesn't cover much the longing that I feel. It's been stressful figuring out ways on how to fulfill my heart's desire but alas it just wouldn't work out the way I wanted it to be. We couldn't control everything there is in life and so I'm letting go. It may be hard letting go of one's longing because some of the pieces will be left behind and will put a mark in our hearts. My friends were right, I should always be grateful with everything that I have right now because you will only know its value once they're no longer there in your life. So much with my self longings. I must be contented. I'll be fine and will continue to move on. I want to go back 3yrs before where I was so focus . Growing up makes us strong but sometimes I wish I was just the same as before 3yrs ago where I feel very contented with everything that I do and I have. Now pressure is all surrounding me. Higher expectations and bigger responsibilities is always there waiting for me. Another aspect of being me is also evolving asking to have or do something which should not be done nor be felt. I need to be strong. I need to focus. I know these will pass and will just be a part of my memories.

A Glimpse of My Childhood Years

Hi. I know it's been quite overdue in updating my blog. Lots of things to be done both school and office that keeps me very busy these days. I just finish making some part of our school requirements and I have decided to post it here as well. It's a flashback of my my childhood years. Though I have not cover everything but at least I was able to take a glimpse of my past. Hope I will somehow make you inspired by sharing my memories.

A Glimpse Of My Childhood Years

By: Cherry

Being born as the eldest among the siblings, I was taught to be tough and trained how to tolerate pain mentally and emotionally. I’ve been asking many times why I need to experience all those punishments and why discipline always accompanied with belts. But now I understand that perhaps that was meant to be for me to become a strong woman as what I am right now.



I’ve been trying to analyze why my parents before were so strict. At a very young age of 18 and 19, my parents gave me life and brought me into this world which I’m always grateful with for the rest of my life. Like with any other couples who marry at a very young age, my parents’ undergone lots of adjustments in their years of marriage. They maybe a strict parents and despite of all of those reprimands and punishments, I know deep in their heart that they love us very much.


My elementary years were full of fun and interesting experiences. I was included in the “Lakambini and Prinsesa 85” competition way back 1985. I was 6 yrs old way back then but still managed to won the first runner up place. Despite of being little and new to those kinds of things, people were much entertained watching me doing the ramping on the stage. I could still remember that I was wearing a long Muslim-oriented gown encircled with beads and lots of glowing materials. That dress was so unique that until now we kept it.

I will never forget that part of my childhood because that’s the first time that I was exposed and was able to gain some self-confidence. Also, when I was six years old my father who loves singing very much started to train me with vocalization. He made me join to a singing contest in some barrios and I will never forget my first singing piece entitled “Hello” by Lionel Riche. Another encounter of joining princess contest was when I was 8 yrs old and it was followed during my grade 5 years when they let me joined again the united nation contest. I was representing United States Of America during that time. I feel my heart really tickles while trying to remember all these things that sometimes it made me wish to go back in the past.



My high school days brought me mix experiences. It was during those years that I have discovered that I have the talent to act onstage. On my first year in high school, I tended to become a shy type one. I never join the crowd and I have few close friends. My third year brought me somehow a unique experience when an instructor became my suitor. And of course I face lots of rumors during that time despite of my being innocence. I am so glad, I face that all and was able to stood up and cleaned my name. My fourth year was the most enjoyable one. That was the time when I got myself qualified in a theater guild and was able to act on stage. I have undergone trainings like the one being done by an actors and actresses. I was so fortunate that I have experienced all those things. We played the “Tatarin” by Nick Joaquin and I really love the role that was given to me. I acted as the sophisticated woman and I really had fun practicing wearing those 3 inches hills while holding that artificial cigar. As I could recall, I was wearing a lavender backless dress. So sexy indeed! That experience really helped me build more confidence to face people and express myself freely.

It’s is my father’s line preferring Engineering as the chosen profession. And probably it explains why I have decided to enroll myself in Computer Engineering. I know it would be tough and I need to add another year to finish it since it’s a 5-year course. Yes indeed I was “burning my eyebrows” every night while complying all the requirements and not to mention the very technical things that I need to understand well. I had fun during my college years though. It is noted that in engineering, girls were outnumbered with boys. But they treated us girls very gently just like a sister. During my 5th year, we went to Manila and visited multiple companies as we had conducted our educational tour. That was my first time to see the views of Manila and also my first time to see the beauty of Baguio City. It was a remarkable experience and I will always cherish the memories forever.

A Dream...

I'm having a cup of coffee now while listening to my Bossa Nova Collection. I really miss blogging. It's my way of expressing myself especially those that comes from my heart. My morning is ok although I have a scary dream last night about riding a plane and it crashed while attempting to land. Gossh.. but in my dream I was crying because I was so thankful that I was not inside when that plane crashed. I was puzzled because some pieces from my dream are missing. I can recall sitting inside while the plane take off and the next thing happened was I saw how the plane crashed and the next thing I was at home crying hard because I was not on that plane. Confusing right? I could still recall the feeling that I have during that time. How grateful I was because during that time my angel helped me again I just couldn’t see how. I felt GOD's presence and he is always there to protect me. That was my first time to dream about airplanes. I feel bad at first when I woke up that's why I'm injecting now the mood of Bossa to help me release that feeling. Few months back, I could still recall I kept on dreaming of someone. Many nights that I dreamt of him and I really don’t know why. That was my first time to a dream a man whose face in my dream is so clear even his smile. At first the picture went very, very clear that I could hardly forget it the scenario every time I woke up. That dream made me asked myself, what is soul mate? I just actually kept that to myself. I kept on dreaming until one day it begins to fade. The face became blurred but I still know that it's him until one day, that dream stopped and worst I dreamt about that plane thing. I wish to know about the meaning of dreams but I am also afraid of unveiling its meaning. Do you believe in dreams? They said dreams are product of heart’s desire...but if this is true, I never desired to be involved in an accident. I have experienced accident one time and it is very, very traumatic. I'm sincerely grateful because GOD is always there for us. His touch of care comes in different ways and too sad that most of the time we didn't noticed it. We should always be grateful and I always believe in prayers. Let’s be thankful always.

Contract Signing @Manila

Hello everyone. I wasn't able to update my blog last week because I was on a business trip. I was mandated to attend the signing of contract with a telecom client to be held at Mall Of Asia Manila. It is important that I should attend to discuss our initial steps of implementation and also to meet those persons that I'll be dealing with during the entire implementation process which will be done as soon as possible. As usual, I enjoyed every trip that I had. For me it's an opportunity to meet new faces and see beautiful places. I brought along one programmer with me. We surely had fun together from plane onboard to our destinations. From the airport going to the hotel at Makati, what a funny experience we had with the taxi driver. Despite of our efforts to use the "Tagalog" language, the driver easily identified that we are "Visayans” (the native language in Mindanao province) because of the way we pronounce the words. Anyway, we stayed at Makati Tower Prime Suites. It's a condotel wherein each room is equipped with certain appliances like refrigerator, electrice stove, oven toaster, television and others. Although the hotel is quite old but still it gives convenience. From hotel, we went straight to our office at Paseo Roxas Makati. My boss and our big bosses were there. We ate lunch together at one of the chinese restaurants near our office. Chinese foods are great and so I like it a lot. In the afternoon, we had a tour at Glorrietta and LandMark. Afterwards, Irene's sister also my former classmate way back high school days came over together with her cousin and husband. We had dinner together at Gerry's Grill in Makati. After finishing our dinner, we went to GreenBelt 5. It's a nice place where you and your partner could hangout. The following day was the main highlight which is the contract signing with our client. From Makati, we went to Mall of Asia located at Pasay City. There's a very nice Chinese restaurant in there called China Palace and that's where the contract signing will take place. The food was delicious and I really neglected my diet during that time hehehe. Anyway, the event was successful and we made them sign at last. Now it's my call. I and my team will handle the implementation which will be conducted very, very soon. Most probably it will start by next month. We need to visit their main office in Taytay Rizal to conduct data gathering particularly the format of their switch raw data. From there we need to do system customization to fit their needs. I'm excited but I'm also beginning to feel the pressure. Hope we could deliver on time. But yes we will !!!


By the way, I never let each day finish without taking some pictures. Here are some of my shots.

@Makati

@Makati

Viewing from 11th floor

Cagayan de Oro View

Cagayan de Oro View

Mountains

Plane approaching Cagayan de Oro

China Palace Restaurant, Mall Of Asia

Aiming High

Let's aim high Pinay!

As a second year student of MBA class, we were required to come up with a feasibility study about anything we wish to venture. We were told to group ourselves into four and will work together as a team for this project. My group is composed of all girls working in different establishments. It's very exciting and cute actually working with all girls just like here in my office. PINK RULES! hehehe. By the way, I and my group mates came up with putting up a learning center for kindergartens and nurseries targeting a specific subdivision here in my city where construction of the site is still in progress. Last Sunday, we have conducted a house-to-house market survey and it was a mission accomplishment for us. That was my first time to do that. What an experience! Staying away from dogs, dealing with respondents’ apprehensions and managing a smooth conversation were really very challenging. And aside of that at the middle of our survey it rained so hard. So we went to my officemates house which is just nearby in the survey area and stayed there for awhile while waiting for the rain to stop. Afterwards, we went to a certain subdivision and there we have decided to make it as our target site where we’ll be going to construct our learning center. We did had fun aside of learning much. What an adventure. We're really aiming to continue this project even after graduation. Hopefully! I have faith. Who knows..

A touch of an Angel

Last night, I caught myself trapped in a scary place feeling helpless and clueless uttering no words but a prayer to GOD to help me find ways to handle the situation. It all started around 6pm in the evening when me and one of our sales manager ride together to check a certain client. But since I was in hurry because I need to attend my MBA class around 6:30 in the evening, I decided to take a jeepney since my school is not that far from there. It was already dark during that time and while looking for the route going to my school place, a "Konduktor" (refers to the assistant of the jeepney driver) approaches me and said "Xavier". Since that's the name of my school without further asking I simply get in and sit down. Since I feel stressed during that time, I hardly noticed the street where we're going. My mind was a bit busy but actually trying to relax my brain. After a few minutes, I'm back with myself again and starting to check if my school is already near. To my surprise, I find the place unfamiliar. That's was actually a diversion road if you would want to skip the busy traffic of the city. I ask the driver if aren't he going to pass my school. All of the passenger look at me and in their face I saw the concern because I mistakenly took that route. That was supposedly going to Xavier Heights and not Xavier University. I really don't know what to do during that time and just decided to get off. I heard one of the passenger and actually even the driver advice me to get off in the place where I could find a taxi. But it seems that I won't accept any suggestions during that time. I was really worried and all I could hear is the voice from my head. When I finally get off, I started to feel scared because the place is dark and there are only few houses in there. I started to look for a taxi, some pass by but there are already passengers inside. It's getting darker and my fear is growing. I was changing spots hoping that a taxi driver will see me. I feel so clueless and all I did was to pray that someone will help me. I've been really trying to find any means of transportation just for me to reach the place where I could find a taxi. Many private vehicles have passed. Since I keep on waving my hands, they must feel that I'm a bad person or worst some kind of a hooker :(. After awhile, finally my angel came and rescued me. It was a "Motorola" as what we call suddenly approaches and actually stop. I told him to help me because I was lost and I can't find a taxi for me to get back in the city proper. He said he needed to go somewhere but before going there he will help me first. Oh I was really relieved and just kept on saying thank you to him. We stopped in a street which is already a little bit familiar to me. He said I could find taxi in there. When I saw a security guard of a certain establishment, I finally let go of the fears but I am still shock with what had just happened. I gave the Motorolla driver a token which he declined. But I really insisted because for me he saves me. And again I thank him so much. He is my Angel and so blessed that GOD is always there for me.

After a few minutes, I finally got a taxi and simply go to the university. I was still really shock when I entered the campus and even when I entered the classroom. Some of my classmates really wondered what happened to me because it seemed that I'm not with myself during that time. I simply said I'm not doing ok and I just kept quite. I send messages to my family about what had happened. With their encouragement and understanding, I’m beggining to calm down and slowly removed the fears. I started to give smile and talk and later on finally manage to be with myself again. It was really a unique but fearful experience for me. What's my lesson? I should always read signs especially the route before getting in a jeepney or any other means of transportation. Thank GOD I am safe.

Let It Be

Hi. It's been a while since my last post here. I apologize. I was really too occupied with my work and schooling lately and ofcourse taking good care of my little boy. I had fun last weekend as we had our MBA acquaitance party. It was a remarkable experience because I got the chance again to sing on stage. At first, I was really concious and it made me deliver my lines badly on the first verse. Good thing my duet partner delivered his lines so well allowing me to catch the beat of the song. My close friends were all there teasing me a lot LOL.

Anyway, everything went well and we really enjoyed that event. Last Monday, me and my groupmates iniated our focus group discussion for our feasibility study. I think we're a little bit panicking that day because we really haven't prepared everything yet. And it's too unethical to postpone it since we already invited some close friends to join the discussion. Ooopss.. time to go. I need to go to a client to give system demonstration. I'll continue this later....

STRESS – unhealthy ways to reduce weights

One of my officemate whom I haven’t seen for a month visited my office and told me that I did lost some weights. Well that's music to my ear but I'm not really into dieting lately. Yes I do circuit workout every weekend but after doing my exercise, I eat a lot LOL. But this is maybe because I'm so stress these past few days. Managing your time for family, school and work is really not easy. But after getting everything done, fulfillment awaits. Good thing my trip to Cebu was postponed because our sales team is still negotiating our proposal to the client. Boss called yesterday and told me to construct another application for a telecom client located at one of the provinces in Manila. Hmmm I don’t have to worry, my girls are the best. We can handle the challenge *wink*. I'll be attending my Marketing Management class tonight. I'm actually one of the reporters. We made some preparation lat night together with my group mates. Hope it will be a smooth class discussion. We also plotted our timeline last night, gossshhh hope we could manage it all. Our days are too busy but I'll never ever neglect my family. How could I neglect my source of strength? Glad they're very supportive. I really did enjoy my MBA days and my new found friends. Hope they're still there after graduation day. I'm going to miss them all for sure.

My Mobile Inbox

Wheew.. I just created my new blog site where I could store my sms messages. I haven't posted plenty of messages yet due to my hectic schedules. Anyway, I'll try to update it this weekend. Besides, I really need to transfer the messages from my mobile. It's getting full now so I really need to free up some space. Please visit my mobile inbox here online. Just click My mobile inbox or simply copy and paste this link to your internet browser http://mymobileinbox.blogspot.com/ . By the way, can you pls click a link of one of the sponsor LOL? I just want to check if it's really working. Thanks..

Promoting another site

Hello. Studying MBA really makes me become business minded. I have lots of plans particularly putting up a small business here in our place. Even here online, I've intended to generate more income as compared to my previous earnings. I'm promoting another site which I'll be constructing today during my lunch break. Filipino people nowadays are really fond of forwarding text messages well even myself I send messages to my friends from time to time. Messages like jokes, morning greetings, afternoon greetings and a lot more. As I browse my mobile this morning, I noticed that my inbox is already out of space so I really need to delete some of the messages. But I'm kind of hesitant deleting it since they were sweet and inspiring. So I came up with the idea to store it somewhere and delete it in my mobile’s inbox. This urges me to create another website where I could store it from time to time. In this manner I could still have the copies and the good thing about it is I'll be sharing those thoughts to the readers like you via web. Another thing also is it will become another means of generating additional income online. It will surely require extra effort and time but it will bring glory at end. Hope you will support it also. GOD Bless!