My "Bukid" Trip Last Christmas

As I said, last Christmas we visited lola's farm. It was actually a sort of nature trekking. I did manage to capture some pictures and I wish to share it. The farm was bit far from the main part of the town. Tranquility surrounds the place and you will really find the beauty of nature quite amazing. We seldom visit that town because for one thing we couldn't get the chance to skip the call of work. That town is quite far from here. It will take 9 hours to reach the place. The trip was tiring but it's worth it. I did had fun and will be looking forward to visit the place again.

Something from the heart...

It's getting late now but still I don't want to sleep. It's raining outside. AlI l could hear is the sound of the pouring rain. The climate is been like this since these past few days. I wanted to do something. It's like I dont want to end the day yet. My body seems to be complaining already very eager to have some rest. But my mind is still busy thinking of many things. I hurried to get home because the weather is really bad right now. Thank GOD I manage to attend my class earlier and do our report. I couldn't speak a lot because of my cough. Wish this will be soon ok. I want to create something. But I'm not quite sure yet what would it be. It has to be something from the heart. Maybe writing a poem, a story? I don't know. I did wrote poems before when I was still in my college days. In fact, I posted it here. I wish to do it again. The idea makes me feel excited. Well till then..Good Night....

2009 A New Beginning.. New Realization

Year 2008 has just ended. And as year 2009 begins, I couldn't help myself recall the happenings brought to me last year. People who touches my life, disspointments, struggles and hopes. I was quite enthralled taking a glimpse of the events surrounded me as year 2008 consumed its time up to the last minute. Most were cute things, funny memories, confusions, suppressions and a lot of mix emotions. Remembering all those cute stuffs, "stuffs" as in feelings? Well, remembering all those is really giving me a blush in my cheeks. I'd never thought I would feel that. Being so helpless controlling my emotions before things get worst. I wonder how I managed that. Well maybe it’s just a matter of thinking rationally like mind rules above all things including feelings. I got a long break vacation. Visited important people whom I haven’t seen for a couple of years. I had witnessed a nearly physical fight between siblings but thank GOD misunderstanding was replaced with love and acceptance abruptly. I miss my friends, my classmates. I'm wearing a sort of strict face here in my office. But it's just a defense mechanism, a mask. It's quite hard being a manager you know. But deep inside I'm really fragile. Easily get affected with situations. Anyway, we get a chance to visit "Lola’s" farm last Christmas. I had fun taking some pictures in there. Glad we got the chance to visit her. She's quite old already. She's a woman with one look you will see full of wisdom and contentment. Although that town is very far, the trip went well. We had full of memories celebrating the Christmas in there. As 2009 begins, I already got few realizations in my life. One thing for sure is I'm really focusing now establishing a future for my love ones. Another hard decision to make is we need to stand on our own right now. It may be not at instant but we need to at least start preparing for it which I'm already doing right now. I couldn't really avoid thinking that many will surely get hurt with the decisions we made but this is the right thing to do. It's for the good of everybody. I need to stick with this decision and this time no emotions should intervene. This is my way to protect them from the harsh side of my existence. I love them despite of their negative side and I don't want to hurt them just because of my stupid pride and tactless tongue. 2008 is a great teacher as I may say. It taught me to become strong and to think in a more mature way. Here in office, I couldn't help myself to smile thinking all those fights in emails. Well the word "fight" might be too exaggerated. I shall say "misunderstanding" I guess with some detractors. But that's over now. I shouldn't let myself get into that kind of situation anymore. I should handle things more maturely now. As what I said "focus" and focus more. GOD I couldn't believe March is approaching. Soon I will receive my masters’ degree diploma. I'm quite excited but at the same time a bit sad. I'm going to miss my school life for sure and my classmates who became real close friends. I had plans after graduation though. I want to try teaching as a part time job. I want to try what its like to be the teacher at school. Would that be so hard? Not because of load which I'm pretty sure I could easily handle but because of handling different personalities of the students. It's for me to find out I guess.

So much with those, I should give some thrill revealing about my inner side and what's on my mind. I love being mysterious sometime. *wink*. Anyway, I got myself into DVD movie marathon these past few days. One story that really caught me was that movie "Twilight". I was really kind of amaze with the story. I always love the sort of "impossible love affair". Not just a simple complicated love affair but stories like a vampire in love with a human? Wow the story really caught me and I salute the author of the book. My classmate has a complete copy of the book and it's very kind of her to share it to me. Each chapter is a bit long but I have lots of patience reading it especially that the story somehow touches me. These are the kind of stories that I love, "the impossible love stories". Well hope I could finish reading it all. It is darkening my eyes right now. Letting myself sleep very, very late because of the excitement of reading it. Oh I couldn’t wait seeing the part 2 of that movie. Hmmm, well this message is getting longer now. I think I should stop before the reader gets bored. Are you? Well hope not. Come visit my blog again. Happy New Year!

My Taytay Rizal Trip

My sincerest apology if I haven't posted messages here for almost two months already. I was too occupied with this new project handed to me by my boss. Being the project manager for this account, I need to be sure that everything will run smoothly that's why I personally checked everything. It seemed that my boss really expected a lot from me and so I'm getting this pressure all the time. But despite of the hardship, I always see things positively. I always told myself that this is my stepping stone to reach what I really dreamed of. Everything that I have experienced now plays important role of how I see things differently each day. Different people that I need to interact with in order to make the implementation of the project a success. It may sound stressful but I love what I'm doing right now and the opportunities that it gave me.

Anyway, my stay at Taytay Rizal was ok. People from Cruztelco (our client) were really accommodating. In fact last Friday, they gave us a complimentary card allowing us to stay at Club Manila East and use all the amenities for free. This resort is also one of the properties of Cruz family. Well I already anticipated the gestures so I already brought with me my bathing suit *wink*. I love swimming. It's a good exercise and I really had fun. The place was great. Lots of foreigners stay in there. The food was terrific also. I think we already tried everything that can be found in the menu and of course that's all for free. They allow us to occupy one of their "Cabanas" as they call it. It was nice. A sort of cottage but as we termed it “with class”. I'm going to visit the place again to perform the main part of the implementation. Hope this project will be a success. We took some pictures and posted it here as well. Visit the place too, you won’t regret it.

Trails of Friendship

In this modern world that we're living in, our busy schedules somehow control the way we perceive life. Yes we see new faces everyday. We get acquainted and eventually we allow them to become part of what we call our circle of friendship. Yet we haven't realized that only a few of them will prevail. Some chooses to become a friend for a lifetime but some just for awhile. We must be ready to face reality that friends do come and go. They're here today but tomorrow who knows. I realized that the degree of friendship depends on oneself and up to what level you will allow that person to penetrate your whole existence. Some were quite fortunate when they get the chance to really know the true person behind that facade smile. But alas for those who get rejected despite of many efforts that they have given and despite of the sincere offering for friendship and trust. We couldn't blame the person if he/she puts barriers because they may have personal reasons behind it. We may sincerely want to be welcomed in all aspects of their lives but sadly there's nothing we can do when that opportunity already comes to its end. It is sad though to realize that people change abruptly without giving a clue that the change is about to begin. That the road of friendship has come to its finish line and there's no other way to move on but to step backwards for us to at least preserve the remaining trails of friendship. I simply realized that this is the way it is and we have to live with it. Our hearts may be stained with pain and sadness for awhile but time knows how to heal it. We need to be strong and should always be ready because none of us can beat life's greatest challenge; and that is living in a world full of constant change.

Poems don't Rhyme

Hi. Sorry if I was carried away with sad emotions last time. It just really shows how vulnerable I am sometimes. I'm doing great now. I saw someone that I missed. Hmmm... it's a secret. As usual there are many things that have to be done here in office. I keep on receiving emails from my boss and from sales people informing me that another client will subscribe to our system. I'm happy with that but it's just that we are having hard time to cope all of those now because I'm in shortage of manpower. Two of my programmers have tendered their resignation last week. There are already lots applicants but none of them passed the exam yet :-(. We're really having hard time now looking for a replacement. Applicants should pass the exam because what I need is with high analytical skills. Anyway, I’ll be out of town next week to attend meetings with two different clients at Manila. Thank GOD it's not yet our Marketing Management defense. I'm beginning to get panic with my schedules now. Hope I could still manage this. I don’t want to stop schooling especially now that 1 semester more to go to graduate. So exciting yet sad to think because it means I will seldom see my classmates then and…… it’s a secret. Hope we will still get in touch always when that time comes. Anyway, I saw this short message from an email. It feels like I'm the author because I could simply relate. Can you relate this to your life too? Till then.

"I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next."

Awful Morning

I feel bad now because I found out something. I wish to shout. I wish to cry. It may sound stupid to someone that because of very ordinary things I feel very awful but that something means a lot to me. I feel being betrayed. I feel alone. What should I do? I havent taken my breakfast yet. I feel bad really.

Things that I truly missed

These past few days I really feel as if I'm totally used up. It's been a stressful weeks doing our feasibility study at school at the same time attending all concerns here in the office. I miss spending most of my time at home with my family. I miss doing gardening. I miss buying of new pots where I could plant beautiful flowers. I miss decorating our little house. I miss doing re-paintings our stairs. I miss going to smalls stores at Cogon area where I could buy very affordable items. I miss reading my pocket books. I miss visiting a library and just browse for any interesting books. I miss checking what's new in the pirated DVD stores hehehe. I miss doing grocery during lunch time. I miss the "Simbang Gabi". I miss waking at 3 o'clock in the morning to attend the mass during Easter Sunday. I miss walking a few meters before reaching my office. I miss going home before 6pm. I miss our fun talks with my mother and sister while waiting for the sun to set. I miss decorating our very cute christmas tree. I miss seeing colorful firecrackers in the sky during Chirstmas and New Year Celebration. I miss doing the caroling. I miss cooking various kinds of foods for a special occasion. I miss wrapping of gifts. I miss the Noche Buena. I miss listening to "Visayan" christmas songs. I miss watching cartoons. And above all, I miss my family.

Wanting something

Have you ever wanted something very much that your heart is really aching to have it but you just can't have it? That's what I'm going through these past few months. Yes I've been very busy lately but that doesn't cover much the longing that I feel. It's been stressful figuring out ways on how to fulfill my heart's desire but alas it just wouldn't work out the way I wanted it to be. We couldn't control everything there is in life and so I'm letting go. It may be hard letting go of one's longing because some of the pieces will be left behind and will put a mark in our hearts. My friends were right, I should always be grateful with everything that I have right now because you will only know its value once they're no longer there in your life. So much with my self longings. I must be contented. I'll be fine and will continue to move on. I want to go back 3yrs before where I was so focus . Growing up makes us strong but sometimes I wish I was just the same as before 3yrs ago where I feel very contented with everything that I do and I have. Now pressure is all surrounding me. Higher expectations and bigger responsibilities is always there waiting for me. Another aspect of being me is also evolving asking to have or do something which should not be done nor be felt. I need to be strong. I need to focus. I know these will pass and will just be a part of my memories.

A Glimpse of My Childhood Years

Hi. I know it's been quite overdue in updating my blog. Lots of things to be done both school and office that keeps me very busy these days. I just finish making some part of our school requirements and I have decided to post it here as well. It's a flashback of my my childhood years. Though I have not cover everything but at least I was able to take a glimpse of my past. Hope I will somehow make you inspired by sharing my memories.

A Glimpse Of My Childhood Years

By: Cherry

Being born as the eldest among the siblings, I was taught to be tough and trained how to tolerate pain mentally and emotionally. I’ve been asking many times why I need to experience all those punishments and why discipline always accompanied with belts. But now I understand that perhaps that was meant to be for me to become a strong woman as what I am right now.



I’ve been trying to analyze why my parents before were so strict. At a very young age of 18 and 19, my parents gave me life and brought me into this world which I’m always grateful with for the rest of my life. Like with any other couples who marry at a very young age, my parents’ undergone lots of adjustments in their years of marriage. They maybe a strict parents and despite of all of those reprimands and punishments, I know deep in their heart that they love us very much.


My elementary years were full of fun and interesting experiences. I was included in the “Lakambini and Prinsesa 85” competition way back 1985. I was 6 yrs old way back then but still managed to won the first runner up place. Despite of being little and new to those kinds of things, people were much entertained watching me doing the ramping on the stage. I could still remember that I was wearing a long Muslim-oriented gown encircled with beads and lots of glowing materials. That dress was so unique that until now we kept it.

I will never forget that part of my childhood because that’s the first time that I was exposed and was able to gain some self-confidence. Also, when I was six years old my father who loves singing very much started to train me with vocalization. He made me join to a singing contest in some barrios and I will never forget my first singing piece entitled “Hello” by Lionel Riche. Another encounter of joining princess contest was when I was 8 yrs old and it was followed during my grade 5 years when they let me joined again the united nation contest. I was representing United States Of America during that time. I feel my heart really tickles while trying to remember all these things that sometimes it made me wish to go back in the past.



My high school days brought me mix experiences. It was during those years that I have discovered that I have the talent to act onstage. On my first year in high school, I tended to become a shy type one. I never join the crowd and I have few close friends. My third year brought me somehow a unique experience when an instructor became my suitor. And of course I face lots of rumors during that time despite of my being innocence. I am so glad, I face that all and was able to stood up and cleaned my name. My fourth year was the most enjoyable one. That was the time when I got myself qualified in a theater guild and was able to act on stage. I have undergone trainings like the one being done by an actors and actresses. I was so fortunate that I have experienced all those things. We played the “Tatarin” by Nick Joaquin and I really love the role that was given to me. I acted as the sophisticated woman and I really had fun practicing wearing those 3 inches hills while holding that artificial cigar. As I could recall, I was wearing a lavender backless dress. So sexy indeed! That experience really helped me build more confidence to face people and express myself freely.

It’s is my father’s line preferring Engineering as the chosen profession. And probably it explains why I have decided to enroll myself in Computer Engineering. I know it would be tough and I need to add another year to finish it since it’s a 5-year course. Yes indeed I was “burning my eyebrows” every night while complying all the requirements and not to mention the very technical things that I need to understand well. I had fun during my college years though. It is noted that in engineering, girls were outnumbered with boys. But they treated us girls very gently just like a sister. During my 5th year, we went to Manila and visited multiple companies as we had conducted our educational tour. That was my first time to see the views of Manila and also my first time to see the beauty of Baguio City. It was a remarkable experience and I will always cherish the memories forever.