Burp!!

Bee-hon and fried chicken plus sweetened mango juice satisfies my hungry stomach after a long hour of programming today. I feel a bit full now so while relaxing, I was thinking why not go open my laptop and do blogging. So here goes.... tadahhhh LOL.

*Sigh* I wonder when can I stop programming jobs? In my mind I wanted to stop after my contract expires and that would be my 12 yrs of programming already. Pheww it's challenging but it is surely a pain in the brain. What if I shift career, it would be nice. Do I still have the luxury of time and money to study medicine? I wonder how it feels if somebody will regard me as a doctor. It will be so cool, I think. Well just a wishful thinking *giggle*. Anyways, my feasibility study is on the run now and hopefully I will manage to finish it including the financial statements. I am seeing that one requirement to put up the business I want is to have a Point-of-sale terminal. This is a bit expensive if I will buy this so I have decided to create it myself to lessen my investment budget. I can make use of the free RDBMS offered, like for instance MYSQL. Hayzzz so there's goes programming again LOL. So it's hard to be separated from this profession huh.

Pointing other matters, well I'm glad I was able to give some space for myself lately. Taking a break from some things indeed helps. The only thing is, it made me read novels so much that whenever I can find time anywhere, I will find myself flipping the pages of that book I'm into again. And I also notice it made me write a lot too. Sharing my thoughts to anonymous. I just finished reading "Angels" earlier and now I'm thinking what to read next. My ordered books will take sometime to reach me. Perhaps I just read again "Host" of Stephenie Meyer. I like her books because of the wordings she chooses when describing the whole picture. It's like she's really putting the readers inside the world she built in the story. "Host" is nice novel too as it talks about aliens and how it came to know and feel what is humanly love.

Yaiks.. feeling sleepy already... zzzzzz

P.S this Saturday will be an extra fun day, I hope. Gazing air force stuff... cool!!

Yawn Monday

It feels a bit heavy this morning since I have very less sleep last night. It is striking again and cannot sleep well here at night. I'm fighting it as our body really needed enough sleep and rest. It seemed that when I'm here many things disturbing my mind. Endless thoughts of something making my mind always busy. That's why my last option is to read something so my thoughts will be drifted to one subject only, the one I read. I am wanting more to go home now as it feels as if it is so unbearable already away from my love ones. It is making me feel sad most of the time. Will just have to finish what I have started so I can give a proper exit. Wish I can make it today. Although my eyes are so wide awake, it feels like I'm dreaming LOL. Goodluck to me then.


Happy Yawn Monday!!!!

A June Gift

Wheww Friday at last and next week would be the last week for the month of May. Can't wait for June to start, and then July, August and so forth LOL. Pardon my impatience but I just can't wait returning to my homeland to be with my love ones. I feel that at this time, I'm eaten up already with many circumstances making me feel exhausted, in defeat. It's like I don't want to play very strong anymore and just allow myself to submit with the flow. It feels that finally I'm consumed already with experiences and the last thing to do now is to be with my family. Too long I was given the freedom to do what I want and I really appreciate it so much that there's a man in my life who understands my needs and who always supports me all the way. I may be unfair most of the time but he just remains quite and understands me. I was blessed indeed to embrace so much trust and believe in me. Many times I have encountered people who feels intimidated with me and even envies some of my little achievements. That “ego” thing? LOL I find them a bit annoying because they just dont know what I have gone through just to move where they moves. The last thing I can do is to stay away from them. They have given me no choice rather than hurting myself trying to please them which is not my forte anymore. But despite of that I am still happy because there's only one man in the world that never feels this way towards me. Who laughs when I laugh, who cries when I cry, feels pain when I get hurt and most importantly who loves the people whom I also love. He feels my achievement is also his achievement rather than seeing me as a tough competitor like the rest I have known so far. I am so happy to realize now that GOD indeed knows how to make two people see and feel each other. And I am glad my path leads me to him and I'm praying that the bond will remain strong despite of anything. His words still lingers in my mind now "If I will be given another chance to choose a person, I will still choose you." I am so blessed indeed to have him.

June is approaching and I need to find a birthday gift for him. Wish I can be with him but although distance is between us, he knew my sincerest care and love. I will just find ways how to deliver it. My mind is scanning what gift to give, as I want to surprise him. I will start doing some window-shopping at this early. Anyway, will be going to Malaysia soon with my colleagues for a one-day tour. Perhaps I can find something from there.

Oh about my novel readings, I'm now half way reading Angels. I think I need to find another book to read next week. Many books to wait now aside from TORMENT and PASSION by Lauren Kate, I think I will be getting also the sequel of ANGEL which are ANGEL FIRE and ANGEL FEVER by L.A. Weatherly. I think I need to buy another bookshelf when I return home. I want to compile all the books I read as my collection. My son loves to read too, he may want to read it too later when he finds himself into novels already.

By the way, "Happy Wedding Anniversary to my mom and dad. Get well soon mom"

Till my next blog.

Novels of Angels

Yes!! Saturday indeed. Time for me to relax my mind because these past couple of weeks I've been hurrying to finish all the programming jobs assigned to me. As much as possible, I don't want to live negative impression towards me like I cannot do my job or took me sometime to finish it. It's very important to establish one's work reputation because you wouldn't know when you will need it as a support in proving your worth in the future. Well so far though, things are still manageable it's just that headaches are really inevitable.

But anyway, I feel excited to start flipping the pages of the book I newly bought. The title is "Angel" by L.A. Weatherly. I'm into stories of angels this time as I don't want to break the momentum I've got from my previous readings which is "Fallen". I'm actually so excited to continue reading its sequel "Torment" but it's not yet out in the Bookstores here in SG since its release date will be this coming June 14, 2011. So what I did was to pre-order it at amazon.com. And guess what? The price they charge me is cheaper since it is pre-ordered. Now I got the technique *wink*. So I ordered the two sequels "Torment" and "Passion" which will be delivered to me by July. So while waiting for it, I have decided to have "Angels". As I read some of the previews of this book, it sound very interesting also as it talks about again Angels falling in love but this time an assassin angel fell in love to one of his target, another angel. Interesting right? You might want to read it too. It's out in the bookstore already.

Happy reading...

Fallen

I am almost finish reading the New York Times Bestseller novel of Lauren Kate "FALLEN". I find the story very interesting as it tells about fallen angels battling between what's good and bad giving balance to our world and how this one angel falls in love with a mortal girl. It's like their love story is happening over and over again as this angle gets to live forever while she gets reincarnated over and over again. Every 17 years they found each other. The very hurting part is he mourns over and over again too because he sees how the girl died. The story is very intriguing and I can't wait to go to a bookstore nearby and get a copy of the second book, it's sequel "TORMENT". Hope it's available now because I can't wait to imagine how the story goes. So cute..

Well, stories I like to read most of the time are those with not so natural happenings. From vampires, wolves, aliens and now angels. I like it so much. Reading something about a certain creatures, kings, queens, kingdoms makes my interest very captivated. When I get back to my hometown, I planned to buy another bookshelf so I can preserve all the books I read as my collection. I noticed my son loves to read too. Right now, he already have multiple collection of Geronimo Stilton books. I also planned to organize a separate bookshelf for him.

I just love reading...... *wink*

Rainy Tuesday Morning

Whewww I can smell the breathing of the ground this morning as it finally rains after embracing the very hot air these past couple of days. Day and Night, it feels like I wanted to take a bath over and over again or plunge myself into a cold pool and stay there for many minutes. Missing my hometown more as my place is very near to beach resorts and whenever we like it, we just go there and hang out, feel the cold breeze of the air bringing many memories to one's mind. I like it so much. Very soon I will embrace it again and of course I will also miss here. But for sure, I will treasure the experience and memories.

Anyway, this morning I find it very interesting. First, the place where I was seated in the bus is same where I was sitting yesterday and same person is sitting beside me. I don't know him, a stranger but he seemed friendly and interesting. Hope I got the chance to become his friend, as he seemed to be a nice, mature and formal person. It's like our mind is talking; flooded with questions like who is she/he? Is he/she Chinese or not? Where is she/he working? hehehehe funny stuffs. If given the chance, I would be very glad to be his friend.

Well, today will be a tough day. I am catching bugs of the programs I'm coding. It made my brain so exhausted yesterday and I should solve it today. During breaks, I want to continue doing my feasibility study. Many things to be done for the upcoming business I would like to venture. This is in preparation for my returning to my hometown. Hayzzz I feel sad because my friend will be going to Canada and will work there. Of course I am happy for him. It's just that on my first few days of stay here in SG, he is the one who really helped me. I am going to miss him. I think that is really life, people come and go. So I'd better do my thing also for very soon, I too will move on. Anyways, wish I would have enough time to prepare everything. Many ideas are flooding to my mind now and I can't wait to put it into writing. My MBA classmate also contributed important details last Friday night and I was so glad to hear it because at this time, it didn’t crossed to my mind. It's like my research is doing a FDG (Focus Discussion Group). *Sigh*, I missed my MBA days. Hope I will really put this up. I'm excited...

Dissapointed

Hayzzz.. I feel so disappointed at one thing today. After all my countless effort to clarify an account in Phil still no avail up to now. I even made international long distance call to my MBA classmate whom I believe can help me verifying it. Other side I'm so glad of his effort trying to help me. It's just that I feel very stressed already with all these things. So I’ve decided to just close it when I get back there. I don’t want anymore the service. Just so dissatisfying. *Sigh*

Checking My Itinerary List

My mind is so drifted with many possible things to put into my itinerary list in order to reach my goal next year. Partly I am happy to realize that I can now put a check mark in my number one list, Philippine Stocks. I haven't imagine how surprisingly fun it is studying the trend of economy and how a stock is affected. Ok so my number two which fortunately I have managed to start doing it now, “Feasibility Study”. Also excited to finish it and to actually put it into realization. Third on the list, Hmmm I think it will involve a little bit more of technical aspect this time. I need to apply my IT skills rather buying it, which will just make an add-on cost to my investment requirements. What’s the fourth? I’m not sure yet at this time but I feel that it will involve more on paper works like business registration and many others. I’ll just go on with flow and will make necessary adjustments whatever necessary.

It's exciting to think about it really and I’m sincerely hoping that I will be able to accomplish my goal. I will be glad to become an entrepreneur even just a small time one. The idea of applying what I have learned out from my 2yr and half of MBA years makes my feet lifted from the ground and can’t wait to do it.

Well in the meantime, I need to do well in my present job now because I'll be getting all financial resources from my salary. Hope things will turn out smoothly.

It's fun conceptualizing ideas, doing research and preparing for it.

I feel so excited. Hooray!!

Minsan Pa (Once Again)

There is one song that I would really love to perform on stage. It's just that I haven't got the chance to choose it every time someone ask me to sing in front of a crowd. It's a classic Filipino song but I really love the melody. The title is "Minsan Pa" (Once Again). It was performed by Filipino actress/singer Zsa-Zsa Padilla way back 1980's. I actually wanted to see whether I can sing it with justice or not hehehe. I'm not really that good but it feels great to at least be on the right tune though I still need some professional help in terms of refining my voice. So, I did some fun yesterday. I researched the song as well as its lyrics. Downloaded and installed in my mobile a sound recorder and recorded my voice while singing it. Well, the result is really not like a pro. Just a simple one but I'm having so fun while doing it. I have decided to post it here in my page not that I want to scare the readers or something hehehe but would just love to preserve a copy of it. It's actually the happy thoughts while doing it and ofcourse my passion in singing. This is a tagalog song but I have manage to find the English interpretation of the lyrics courtesy of Lyrics Translate . If you like, you can sing along with me. Just don't mind the other noises you will hear in the background. I'm just in the vicinity of my room having all the noises coming in from my window. Of course I opened my window so others in the flat will not be wondering what is happening with me and why I'm sort of screaming.. like scaring somebody hehehehe.

Anyways, Happy listening... I Hope ^_^

"Note to readers: Recording is just one of my fun-filled activities. I really don't have all the pro gadgets and was just trying to be resourceful using my mobile as my sound recorder. The output is really not that refine. But I'm still happy I was able to capture my singing. So, here it is. Just click the play button if you still want to hear it ^_^"







"MINSAN PA" (ONCE AGAIN)
Filipino
Minsan pa Kay tagal ko nang pangarap
At laging nang dasal
Pag-ibig na sadyang wagas
Ngunit waring kay ilap ng palad kong ito
At akoy patuloy na bigo.

O pusong kay sakit...ala-alang kay pait
At kung muling balikan ang lahat ng nagdaan
Tila walang pang minahal at walang natagpuan
Nais ko sanang mag-isa’t huwag nang umibig pa

Kung yan man ay tototo at manatili sa mundo
Na walang buhay, walang kulay, walang nagmamahal
Ngunit kong akoy mahihintay umasa pa’t
Umibig pang muli...minsan pa....

Minsan pa akong nangarap
At sanay maganap Sa iyo’y ibibigay lahat
Narito ngayo’t kailanman ‘ikaw ang langit ko
Tanging ningning ng buhay ko

Halina sa piling ko
Alisin ang takot ko
At sa muli’y malasap ang pag-ibig na ganap
At ang pangarap na mundo ay matupad sa piling mo
Ayaw ko na muling mabuhay pang nag-iisa.

Ikaw ang simulat wakas, ang ngayon at ang bukas
Ikaw ang pag-asa habang buhay..mahal pa rin kita
At sadyang wagas, pag-ibig ko’y
Ngayon at kailanman...minsan pa


English
Once Again I have long dreamed
And have always prayed
For a love that is everlasting
But it seems to have eluded me
And I am frustrated still

O heart so pained...
Memories so bitter
And if I would remember all that has happened
It would seem that I have never loved anyone nor found anyone
I wish to be alone and never to love anymore

If that were true and I would remain in this world
Without life, without color, without someone loving me
But if I wait, and hope, and
Love again... Once again...

I have dreamed yet once again
And hope it would come true
I would give all to you
Here, now, and forever, you are my heaven
The only brightness in my life

Come, be with me
Dispel my fears And once again taste the love that is complete
And the world that I have dreamed of, would come true with you
I would not want to live alone again

You are the beginning and the end, the present and the future
You are my hope, for as long as I live... I love you still
And truly eternal is my love
Now and forever... Once again

Channeling My Thoughts

Lately, I couldn't stop myself flipping the pages of the book I'm reading now as I eagerly wanted to know what would happen at the end of the story. The excitement made me feel very occupied that it's like I'm actually inside that fantasy world created by the author. I like it this way. I am liking this feeling when I'm so focus letting some pictures sink in my mind, the characters, the whole story itself. Because in a way I'm just doing my own thing and doesn’t minding anymore the people around me. Worrying whether I have offended a person or not and just hurting myself in the process. I don't like that. I don’t want to feel weak. Being depress is the first thing, I'm wary about and so I always find ways to escape from it. I'll jump from one place to another if I have to. But surprisingly, somehow I retrieve my old ways of how to channel things. I feel now a bit relieved because I nearly forgotten one of my passion which is reading nice novels and gladly was able to ignite again that momentum inside of me. I was just preoccupied with my curiosity to explore things and to know people. I feel the excitement recalling my gestures like when I'm hurrying home because I couldn't hardly wait curling to my bed and start flipping the page of the book again.

Well luckily, my thoughts now are very occupied and feel like no more room to entertain negative vibes, disappointments and fears. Such keen understanding flows in me again and I simply rekindled my reasoning of why I am here, working in this foreign land away from my love ones. I am simply seeing what I should do now. Just enjoy while things still there and the next day another challenges for me. Time flies so will just have to make the most of it. A blissful afternoon everyone.