Where to host my site?

I was searching from Goggle the best site to host this business that I have in mind right now. My DSL connection in my apartment will soon to be working hopefully within this week. Since I usually slept very late at night, I have decided to build a new site where I could start promoting a business. This is more on giving services as well as offering party accessories to prospect clients. I can do lots of things actually but sadly I just don't know where to start. I kept on searching within me what I really wanted but sometimes it's really too hard to see it. I tend to become a complicated person sometimes that me myself, couldn't really read what lies in me. Anyways, going back to the effort which I made this morning selecting from various sites where I could probably host my page, it turned out that it's a bit hard to choose which of those are really effective. I tried signing up to some of those sites that I found but using their tools in building pages seemed to be a bit complicated and not that manageable. I even browse my old sites and see whether I can remodel the contents and change the theme that will fit to the nature of my business. Hmmm it's dissappointing. I can't choose. Finally, I have decided to host it here. I will just create another site in blogspot and still under my account. I think it will be manageable to me and very easy to maintain. Besides, blogging these days is very effective. So im sure, promoting my site and especially my business would be too easy. Once done, I will start some promotions, attract customers and will officially register it to our local office. And hopefully I would be able to put up a small business office here in my city. Well, good luck to me. Till my next blog....

Oracle PL/SQL Training Computer Based Training Program

It's been 4 years since I stopped using Oracle as my programming language in building application. Though I can see that I became an expert before in Oracle coding and debugging, still I need to review since I have been using Progress programming now for almost 5 yrs already and had left Oracle syntax. I am having a training course now for Oracle PL/SQL under computer based training program provided by the PLDT management. I feel excited too in taking this course. The duration by the way for this training will start today (August 11,2009) to August 24,2009. Every day, the program will take 6-8 hours depending on how fast am I to cope up with the topics being discussed. It's great because after taking this and hopefully I'll be able to pass the exam, the training team will provide me a certificate of completion. I have always believed that all of these that I am doing right now is preparing for something big. I have always believed that one day I'll reach what I have always dreamed of in terms of my career ladder. Yesterday, I was very occupied in making a business case analysis for the system that we are developing right now. I couldn't believed when my boss asked me to prepare a business case analysis for one day? But gladly, I made it and have produced a good one. I always take every challenges as my stepping stone. As I said, I know everything that I do now feels like preparing for the future. I know I'll be able to make it with flying colors. Someday, I'll reach my dreams. "Aim high and think big".

Oh My! I Miss Blogging..

My sincere apology to my readers. It's been awhile since my last blogging here and I really miss it. I was too occupied with many things lately and I haven't really got the chance to open this blogging site. Many beautiful things happened but there are also sad moments. Right now, I'm handling lots of confusions but this is life. Like what an author said and I quote "What makes coffee sweet? Sugar? No! It's the stirring you do after adding sugar. Like in life, it's what you do with you have that makes it worthwhile!" All of us will really meet challenges in life and part of it is dealing with confusions letting you decide which way to go. I am rationalizing things right now. Allowing my mind to weigh every consequence to be dealt with in case I would choose a different path. People see me right now as a strong person but deep inside I am fragile yet trying to act bravely and smartly. And yes I can handle this. Anyway, I had a fun experience last July 26, 2009. I was with my MBA friends and we visited again Del Monte plantation at Bukidnon Misamis Oriental. From there we went to the Club house for a horseback riding. It was really a memorable experience because while riding, suddenly it rained very, very hard. The horses became distracted and actually frightened and so they run fast. It was too scary but on the other side, what an experience riding a horse running marvelously. For me I can feel all those things described in a novel about horses and how fascinating it is being a rider. I was all wet during that time but it was worth it. While riding, I have forgotten all those things that confuse me even the some pains that linger inside my heart. I was like a newborn being flying free in the air. After that horseback riding, we went to Menzi Orchard and had experienced the whispers of the mountains and trees. It was great and I would love to do that again. I will surely put that in this blog. Till then and thank for your continuous support.

Life at 30..

Last March 2009, I have celebrated two important events in my life. One is reaching total maturity being me at 30 and the other one is finally achieving my Masters degree in Business Administration. It was such a wonderful experience though partly I was having some fear, the fear of aging. Perhaps I am feeling this because there are still lots of things that I wish to try, I wish to discover. But life is just like this and we must face reality everyday of our lives. I am so blessed that at this age, I feel I have achieved much. I am looking forward to try and discover things in another horizons. I'm so glad I felt all those wonderful emotions in the past. Happiness, sadness, attraction, determination, hope and gratitude. And I thank everybody who helped me become what I am today.

Our DE Tour

Woke up at 4 am in the morning yesterday to beat the bus that was supposed to leave by 6 am. My entire night was uneased, sleeping a little bit anxious of the time. I was having fever and I'm a bit worried that I might not able to join the trip. Gladly I managed to wake up early and took my not supposed to be bath. It was still dark when I left the house. It was colder outside as it was still raining wetting the road making it too uncomfortable for walkers. The whole city seemed to be asleep still and only small sounds that I could hear echoing from some distant. I was the second one to arrive and stayed in the 24 hours doughnut store while waiting for the others. I felt proud to myself because despite of my sickness I was still very efficient about time. Many people are inside in that store. Some seemed to work in a hospital. Quite noticeable because of the uniforms that they're wearing. Some just got off from their work I think and dropped by to have some coffee before going to their homes. It was nice seeing all those people. Seldom we see them because most of us work during the day and sleep mostly during the night. While them, they sleep during the day and work during the night. It just shows how ironic life can be. We just haven't notice its small details. Well anyway, it was an educational trip for our Development of Entrepreneurship subject. We visited a farm and took lots of pictures from there. It was great and everything went well. Glad I did able to join. Our graduation day is fast approaching now. Things like this shouldn't be missed. I will definitely miss all my classmates after that big day.

Questions..

I couldn't help myself thinking of many things that I truly wanted. Sometimes it confuses me, sometimes misguided and even blinded. I wanted to follow what my conscious self is telling me but my rational being supersede each step that I was about to make. I hate myself sometimes for making me very vulnerable yet irrevocable. Easily flooded with emotions and erratic decisions. I thought I finally conquered and took control of the emotions which I think seemed to be not right. Maybe it could be right in some instance but probably not just in the right side of time to be realized. I was relieved with the thought that I have managed to make it pass without starting to hurt anyone including myself. I was finally able to breathe freely and determined to focus and follow my plans. But suddenly without a warning, the strength that I've been carefully holding on shattered into pieces allowing it to work freely covering my whole existence again. Resisting seems to be impossible after that very careful and very subtle encounter. It’s like touching my heart and echoing something to it. How can I resist? How can I make myself strong enough to become deaf and just ignore what my heart is telling me? But why it feels as if it was reciprocated? Justifying what's right and what's wrong? Sometimes I choose to ignore but it feels painful seeing and feeling that things seems affected with my cold response. And whenever that thought comes, it is hard to breathe normally. I wanted to give way to what I truly wanted but many things are holding me. Reality is biting hard and it's making me very weak to not fight for it anymore or to not keep what I'm holding right now. Am I too selfish for wanting something that I can never have? I wanted to think that life is fair; that everything has its all purpose. Should I believe then that somehow this will connect to the story of life someday? Is destiny will lead me to it? Or am I that powerful enough to twist my fate? It's hard to think but for now I will feel its existence.

My "Bukid" Trip Last Christmas

As I said, last Christmas we visited lola's farm. It was actually a sort of nature trekking. I did manage to capture some pictures and I wish to share it. The farm was bit far from the main part of the town. Tranquility surrounds the place and you will really find the beauty of nature quite amazing. We seldom visit that town because for one thing we couldn't get the chance to skip the call of work. That town is quite far from here. It will take 9 hours to reach the place. The trip was tiring but it's worth it. I did had fun and will be looking forward to visit the place again.

Something from the heart...

It's getting late now but still I don't want to sleep. It's raining outside. AlI l could hear is the sound of the pouring rain. The climate is been like this since these past few days. I wanted to do something. It's like I dont want to end the day yet. My body seems to be complaining already very eager to have some rest. But my mind is still busy thinking of many things. I hurried to get home because the weather is really bad right now. Thank GOD I manage to attend my class earlier and do our report. I couldn't speak a lot because of my cough. Wish this will be soon ok. I want to create something. But I'm not quite sure yet what would it be. It has to be something from the heart. Maybe writing a poem, a story? I don't know. I did wrote poems before when I was still in my college days. In fact, I posted it here. I wish to do it again. The idea makes me feel excited. Well till then..Good Night....

2009 A New Beginning.. New Realization

Year 2008 has just ended. And as year 2009 begins, I couldn't help myself recall the happenings brought to me last year. People who touches my life, disspointments, struggles and hopes. I was quite enthralled taking a glimpse of the events surrounded me as year 2008 consumed its time up to the last minute. Most were cute things, funny memories, confusions, suppressions and a lot of mix emotions. Remembering all those cute stuffs, "stuffs" as in feelings? Well, remembering all those is really giving me a blush in my cheeks. I'd never thought I would feel that. Being so helpless controlling my emotions before things get worst. I wonder how I managed that. Well maybe it’s just a matter of thinking rationally like mind rules above all things including feelings. I got a long break vacation. Visited important people whom I haven’t seen for a couple of years. I had witnessed a nearly physical fight between siblings but thank GOD misunderstanding was replaced with love and acceptance abruptly. I miss my friends, my classmates. I'm wearing a sort of strict face here in my office. But it's just a defense mechanism, a mask. It's quite hard being a manager you know. But deep inside I'm really fragile. Easily get affected with situations. Anyway, we get a chance to visit "Lola’s" farm last Christmas. I had fun taking some pictures in there. Glad we got the chance to visit her. She's quite old already. She's a woman with one look you will see full of wisdom and contentment. Although that town is very far, the trip went well. We had full of memories celebrating the Christmas in there. As 2009 begins, I already got few realizations in my life. One thing for sure is I'm really focusing now establishing a future for my love ones. Another hard decision to make is we need to stand on our own right now. It may be not at instant but we need to at least start preparing for it which I'm already doing right now. I couldn't really avoid thinking that many will surely get hurt with the decisions we made but this is the right thing to do. It's for the good of everybody. I need to stick with this decision and this time no emotions should intervene. This is my way to protect them from the harsh side of my existence. I love them despite of their negative side and I don't want to hurt them just because of my stupid pride and tactless tongue. 2008 is a great teacher as I may say. It taught me to become strong and to think in a more mature way. Here in office, I couldn't help myself to smile thinking all those fights in emails. Well the word "fight" might be too exaggerated. I shall say "misunderstanding" I guess with some detractors. But that's over now. I shouldn't let myself get into that kind of situation anymore. I should handle things more maturely now. As what I said "focus" and focus more. GOD I couldn't believe March is approaching. Soon I will receive my masters’ degree diploma. I'm quite excited but at the same time a bit sad. I'm going to miss my school life for sure and my classmates who became real close friends. I had plans after graduation though. I want to try teaching as a part time job. I want to try what its like to be the teacher at school. Would that be so hard? Not because of load which I'm pretty sure I could easily handle but because of handling different personalities of the students. It's for me to find out I guess.

So much with those, I should give some thrill revealing about my inner side and what's on my mind. I love being mysterious sometime. *wink*. Anyway, I got myself into DVD movie marathon these past few days. One story that really caught me was that movie "Twilight". I was really kind of amaze with the story. I always love the sort of "impossible love affair". Not just a simple complicated love affair but stories like a vampire in love with a human? Wow the story really caught me and I salute the author of the book. My classmate has a complete copy of the book and it's very kind of her to share it to me. Each chapter is a bit long but I have lots of patience reading it especially that the story somehow touches me. These are the kind of stories that I love, "the impossible love stories". Well hope I could finish reading it all. It is darkening my eyes right now. Letting myself sleep very, very late because of the excitement of reading it. Oh I couldn’t wait seeing the part 2 of that movie. Hmmm, well this message is getting longer now. I think I should stop before the reader gets bored. Are you? Well hope not. Come visit my blog again. Happy New Year!

My Taytay Rizal Trip

My sincerest apology if I haven't posted messages here for almost two months already. I was too occupied with this new project handed to me by my boss. Being the project manager for this account, I need to be sure that everything will run smoothly that's why I personally checked everything. It seemed that my boss really expected a lot from me and so I'm getting this pressure all the time. But despite of the hardship, I always see things positively. I always told myself that this is my stepping stone to reach what I really dreamed of. Everything that I have experienced now plays important role of how I see things differently each day. Different people that I need to interact with in order to make the implementation of the project a success. It may sound stressful but I love what I'm doing right now and the opportunities that it gave me.

Anyway, my stay at Taytay Rizal was ok. People from Cruztelco (our client) were really accommodating. In fact last Friday, they gave us a complimentary card allowing us to stay at Club Manila East and use all the amenities for free. This resort is also one of the properties of Cruz family. Well I already anticipated the gestures so I already brought with me my bathing suit *wink*. I love swimming. It's a good exercise and I really had fun. The place was great. Lots of foreigners stay in there. The food was terrific also. I think we already tried everything that can be found in the menu and of course that's all for free. They allow us to occupy one of their "Cabanas" as they call it. It was nice. A sort of cottage but as we termed it “with class”. I'm going to visit the place again to perform the main part of the implementation. Hope this project will be a success. We took some pictures and posted it here as well. Visit the place too, you won’t regret it.