Giving A New Look

I have personally created a simple header graphic for this blog to give it a fresh new look. It's not that much but I’m hoping you will like it. It's been awhile since I have started updating this blog and it helps me a lot in giving an ease to my troubled emotions by sharing my feelings, sentiments, and experiences to all of you. Also, I want to express my sincerest thanks to all of you whom until now still there to support me. The above image actually includes a picture of me but I cannot let you see my whole face because I prefer to be mysterious sometimes; well except of course to those friends of mine who knew me already in person. Sometimes being a stranger to many people could help me pour out and write all those things that may just come to my mind and my heart. Anyway, I'm still thinking of some other ways to improve this site. So I'm hoping you will visit my blog again. Thank You.

A ride with "Amboy"

I had an exciting adventure yesterday as me and my classmates in MBA visited the town of Camp Philips Bukidnon. While we are on our way to the club house, we made a stopover at the pineapple plantation of Del Monte Philippines. Oh it was so wide that I couldn't even see where it ends. We took some pictures in there and after that we move on to the club house and there we had so much fun doing the horse back riding. It was actually my first time that's why it was so scary for me. At first, I decided not to try it because I was too afraid that I might fall causing my bones to break. But with the encouragement of my friends, I finally got my nerve to choose a horse and sit in the saddle. And that's where I met "Amboy". He's actually the only male horse in there. The rest were all females yet their quite strong and wild. "Amboy" is kind of different. He is quite and gentle that's why when I first look at that horse, I have decided to ride on him. The owner of that horse ride with me too and he sits at the back. At first, It was too scary especially when the horse do a little of galloping. I thought I'm going to be thrown upfront. But after awhile, I learned to balance my body allowing me to move in accordance to the gesture of the horse. It was so nice. I felt like I'm doing a scene for "Tanduay" commercial LOL. The weather was a bit hot during that time but the wind blows beautifully. At last I have experienced now the feeling of being a horse rider just like what I have usually read in my pocket book stories. It is indeed true that when riding a horse, you should ride and feel as one. I was able to touch the hair of the horse. He was so gentle and friendly. I'm not going to forget you "Amboy". Well after the horse back riding, we went to Obrero's place also known as Montegelo Farm. It's a nice place too. There you could find varieties of "Anturium" plants, a pool and falls. There's a videoke bar in there too. We haven't stayed long in there because it was already raining heavy so we went to another place and had our snacks while sharing our experiences riding the horse. It was just a one day tour but I had so much fun already. Couldn’t wait for another adventure similar to this. Till Then!

Crying Again :(

I couldn't help it :-(. Last night I was crying again while watching that Korean movie "A Moment To Remember". The story is sad yet it was really full of love. It tells about the a couple whom at first their life living together seemed very perfect. However, Alzheimer's Disease ruined it all as it was bestowed to the 27 year old Kim Soo-Jin (the main character lady). Her husband, a very tough guy and even temperamental suffer the plight of dealing it out. He may not be very vocal of telling how much he loves the girl, but his love for her is very, very deep. What made me cry really was when the girl called her husband by the name of her ex-boyfriend and tells him that she loves him. Her husband pretends that it was really his name and he answered back that he too loves her. It really touches my heart. Alzheimer's Disease case will erase your recent memories first. It will make you forget your families, friends and even yourself. Just like what the girl told her husband, "I have an eraser in my head". Although the girl truly loves her husband all she could remember is her past. It was really sad but for me it's a realization of what a loving person really means and what is forgiveness is all about. It's just giving a room to one's heart. Oh I hate it when I cry because my nose really turns to red and my eyes will be swelling in the morning. But I do love the movie because it touches my heart. Can't wait to watch another Korean movies again. I'll try tonight LOL. Back to my work now.

Korean Telenovelas

It was a marathon of Korean Movies for me this week. I have managed to watch 200 Pounds beauty, My little bride , 100 days with Mr. Arrogant, Innocent Steps and Love Me Not. They were all very nice films and most it were romantic comedy story. 200 Pounds Beauty is a bit touching. It talks about a very fat ugly lady (named Hannah) but who sings like an angel. She has a very marvelous voice that anyone who could hear her songs will surely fall inlove with her. However, whenever she sings she just stays at the backstage where she does her singing while another performer will be seen in the main stage doing a lip sync of her song :( . So sadly, people mistakenly love and adore that performer without knowing that she is not the real singer of the songs. Hannah desperately falls inlove with the producer. It was enough for her loving him at a distance. Seeing him each day and feeling that he cares were enough and too overwhelming for her. But the world seemed too cruel that's why she was so determined to undergo an unimaginable operations from head to toe just to make her beautiful. For her, it would be a rebirth since she was already dead that moment humiliation ate her up alive. And indeed she became beautiful and was able to sing in front of the cameras. The audience love her; however she realized that true happiness could not be measured by having beautiful face but with the bountiful of love you could get from your friends and families. I really love the story. Honestly I do have lots of insecurities but I'm trying hard to replace it with gratitude with what I have now and what I have achieved despite of my wekanesses. Sometimes I feel I became greedy already. I keep on asking for more where infact I am already blessed with enough love more than what I have hoped for before. Now I realize that GOD made me this way for me to be reminded always to put my feet in the ground and be grateful with what I have . I should never belittle myself just because of my stupid insecurities. Life must go on and we should live it to the fullest while it lasted. Well anyway, I'm glad I was able to do my work out last night. It feels so refreshing this morning. Next week will be the start of my summer class. It would be a tough days again. But I know I can make it. Time management and staying healthy will help a lot. Till Then :=)

Playing Byul - 200 Pound Beauty OST

Youme - Byul lyrics
(200 Pound Beauty OST)

Param-kyori cha-ngeu-rheun-teul-go
Nae kiman-han cha-gun naye bang wi-ro
Arum-taun-ke pyul-bit-durun
Kaduk chae-wo-chuneyo
Sel-su-obshi manhunt pyul-tu-reun
Ji-chyo-in-nun na-reul oru-man-chimyo
Nae mam-soge katok tamun
Nun-mul tak-ka shu-neyo

Man-hyi apa-ha-ji-ma
Nal kkung anun-chae
Tado-kyojumyo chal-jara
Wero-hae ju-neyo

Goshi mo-thal man-kum
Hime gyowa apa-wado
Nun-muri a-peul kar-yowado
Gatchi-mothan nae sarang apedo
Na usul-lae-yu
Cham-shira-do gyote
Haeng-bo-khaet-don giok-turul
Ga-sume gan-ji-khal-kkeyo
Tunune sunoh-a-jin
Cho pyol-deul-cho-rom yongwonhi

Kkumul kku-deut taka-uneyo
Yu-nu-nhi-do balkun naye byol hana
Nunbu-shi-mi panjja-gimyo
Okkae-wiro naer-yo-wa

Jakku sulpo-hajima
Son kkong chabun-chae
Nal manchyo-jumyo
Tta-seu-hi nal kamssa-shu-neyo

Goshi mo-thal man-kum
Hime gyowa apa-wado
Nun-muri a-peul kar-yowado
Gatchi-mothan nae sarang apedo
Na usul-lae-yu
Cham-shira-do gyote
Haeng-bo-khaet-don giok-turul
Ga-seum-soge gan-chikhal-kke-yo
Tunune sunoh-ajin
Cho pyol-deul-chorom ooohhhh

Na onul-manun anu-royu
Nun-muri kadokchowado
Chogi cho byol-deul-chorom
Na u-seul-lae-yo ooohhhh
Haeng-bokhaet-don giok-modu
Ga-sume gan-ji-khal-kkeyo
Tunune sunoh-a-jin
Cho pyon-deul-cho-rom
Yongwonhi

Happy Easter

It's been awhile since my last post and I'm glad I find sometime now to post something in here. Holy week had just passed. And I have spent most of my time with my family repenting and reflecting with the sins I have committed. I just celebrated my birthday too last Holy thursday so happy birthday to me :) We went to Duka Bay Resort and spent overnight in there. The following day we went to Alibuag Spring. I have enjoyed it a lot. The water is too cold so I stayed in the water longer without realizing how hot the weather was. As a result, I have lots of sun burn entire my body including my face :( . I have to put lots of cream in it to bring back its natural tone :(. Well but anyway, what matters most is I did enjoyed my birthday celebration. Thanks to my family and friends who made the celebration memorable for me. I am very blessed to have you guyz.

Alibuag Spring

Feeling Light Today

Wheeww.. We did it Hooray! A round of appluase for my programmers. They're the best. We have finished the development of Banking System which was endorsed to us few weeks ago and we beat the deadline. We will showcase the system starting tomorrow at Limketkai Rotonda for the Mindanao Cooperative Summit. This coming Monday we will formally introduced the banking system to the board members of cooperatives in Mindanao. Hope they will subscribe. Hmmm I'm a bit tense. I feel good this morning too. I have manage to do circuit work out last night and it feels so refreshing. I have skipped my work out for two weeks now that's why my body lately is aching abit. I guess I'm getting used to of lifting that dumbbells. I woke up early this morning because I thought I will be having a meeting at around 9:00 am with one of our clients. But they send me a mobile messages earlier informing me that our meeting will be postponed this coming Monday. Hmmm so I will be free this morning. Maybe I should scan my Financial Management notes because I'll be having a final exam tomorrow afternoon. I'll be a bit busy tomorrow. In the morning, I need to visit LimketKai to support the showcase. In the afternoon I'll be attending Ficco's general assembly to get my dividends LOL at the same time I will take my financial management exam. After the exam, I'll be in Limketkai again for the showcase. There will be another showcase this coming sunday but I'm not sure if I could visit Limketkai. There's lot tof things to be done at home. Monday morning meeting with a client and afternoon meeting with another client. My boss will be here too so it would be a long week next week. But tuesday I think I will not go to work to study my Management Accounting subject. I think we'll be having our final exam tuesday night. I'm not that very good in accounting but will just do my best. *wink*

Feeling Awful

I feel awful this morning. I feel that I hurt someone unintentionally. Why my heart is so sad? It’s like I want to hug that person and say my sincere apology. I don’t know if I did wrong but why is it that it’s so unbearable to the heart just merely thinking of that person. I don’t know but I just really feel sad. You know who you are. I’m really sorry. Forgive me if I cause you pain. I feel that I was being unfair to you. It was also very hard dealing the situation. If only you knew I am just suppressing it for the good of everybody. I’m sorry and I hope we could still get along. Hope you will not see me as a bad person. I have no intention hurting you and I’m honestly saying that I really did try to suppress it but sometimes it just came out unexpectedly. I was being unfair. Hope you will forgive me.

OverStressed?

Yes I think I'm over stressed now. I need a very long vacation break. But what can I do? we have a scheduled product presentation this coming March 10. It's wide mindanao conference of cooperatives and we are scheduled to present and introduce our financial software to them. The Banking design web edition was just given to me a week ago and we need to develop it before the schedule date of presentation. I know my developers are a bit tired now that's why I'm helping them out doing the programming of the modules. Wish we could finish it soon so I could take a week leave. We're planning to go to Davao this coming holy week. I will just have my vacation in there. I want to go to a place away from the pressures at work even just for a week. Yesterday I'm having a fever and couldn't manage to stand up because I feel dizzy. I have checked my blood pressure and thank GOD I still have blood LOL, it's still normal. My eyes are having trouble now maybe I have to change my glasses. I'm exposing my eyes too much to computers lately. And when I'm at home I couldn't take off my eyes in that Korean DVD movie "Coffee Prince". What can I do, the story is so funny and well quite romantic. I love romantic comedy films. *wink*

This week

It's been quite a loong week for me doing lots of things that's why I wasn't able to update my blog these past few days. Just not to skip putting something in here every week I will just give a summary of what I did recently but it will be short because I need to attend my classes few minutes from now. Well first, finally I have now my non professional driver's license. I've been using the SP license because I couldn't find time yet to apply for the non prof. It was a long day application for me. Drug test, medical test, written examination and pratical exam. Woooshh it's a bit tough but thank GOD I have passed it all. Last Monday was my mom's birthday too so we have a little celebration at home and I did prepared sweet macaroni salad for her. I did lots of paintings lately and it made my right arm numb a bit but it feels fine now. I need to apply the second coat though, so maybe this weekend I will do it. This week is not too good for me too because I was sick maybe because of too much stress. I need a long vacation but I can't do it just yet. My boss won't aprrove it because we have a deadline to meet. Anyway, I know i could still make it and after that VACATION.. Till my next blog. I need to go now to attend my class..Till then.

Self Realization

It was 11 o'clock in the evening when I arrived at home last night. Together with my MBA classmates, we have discussed our written analysis case which will be submitted this coming Friday. So far the discussion went very fine and hopefully I'll be able to draft my case analysis correctly too. Anyway as I recalled, it was in the middle of the discussion that something came up to me. While in the middle of conversing, I realized a very important aspect in my life. Many years I've been searching for something that I dont even know what would that be. Trying to fulfill a very selfish longing that was hidden somewhere in my heart for quite sometime. I thought finding it will give me happiness and contentment. Few weeks ago, I told myself I finally find what I've been looking for. I was so happy that I even posted a blog for it describing how I feel during that time. Thinking that when time comes for me to completely forget about that feeling, all I have to do is browse this blogsite, reminisce and maybe even just smile to the idea that I did experienced that feeling before. But No! I realized that's not what I need and in fact I shouldn't been looking for anything now because I already had it a very long time ago. It was so selfish of me to not recognize it's presence and the love it gave me without questions and conditions. I consider them my treasures in life. I realized that it's because of them why I love myself more, why I want to look beautiful each and why I think so positively in life. I finally came to my senses and know now where my place is. A place where I know where love is unconditional and true. I promise to be a better person now and I should always appreciate all the blessings that was given to me. Thank You Lord for making me realize the most beautiful part of my existence. From now on, I will try to be a better person and I promise to take good care and love them deeply. So precious.. You are my treasures.